The Thing that Differs Us...

Hell.

'What the fuck have you done to yourself?!' he shouted 

'I'm sorry!' I whimpered. 

I sat on the edge of his bed in my jeans and bra, while he walked around the room, shirtless. 

'Why?!' I saw tears at the brim of his eyes. 

I sobbed into my hands. My heart could not stop beating. I felt it. It vibrated my chest. My cuts started to hurt. 

'Addison.' I bawled 

'Tell me.' he ordered 

He wasn't comforting. He was pissed off. I would be. 

'Please don't leave me..' I cried 

'I'm not going to leave you.' Addison sat down next to me. 

'I'm sorry.' I repeated 

He sighed, giving in and wrapping my arms around my body. 

'Why do it, Zar.' He said, his voice was deeper. He was crying. 

'I don't know.' I wept into his chest. 

'Does your mom know?' His chin rested on my head. 

'My m-mom...' I stuttered

'Zariah.' 

'Addie.' The streams of tears never ended. 

'Where's your mother?' he squeezed my body. 

I breathed. Heavier and heavier, quicker and quicker. Hyperventilation took over my lungs. Gooey, slimy liquid ran from my nose. Warm tears rolled down my face and trickled down my chin. Uncontrollable cries escaped my mouth. My fingernails dug into Addison arms which held protectively around my front. 

'Shh... It's okay. Baby please.' His hand rested on my cheek. 

My body lost all movement. It collapsed. I couldn't move. All I could do was cry. Shout. Shout nothing. Just screams. Addison managed to pick me up and sit me next to him on his bed. We stayed there. On the bed. Lying down. Me in Addie's arms. Bawling. 

'Baby please stop crying.' he whispered 

My crying had calmed down a little. Just whispered whimpers. 

'I love you.' he said gently. 

I grasped his hand.  

'I love you.' he repeated

I sniffed. Trying to calm down. 

'I do. I love you. I really do... I'm here for you.' 

My breathing had limited to a normal rate. My eyes were hurting and I fell asleep. Shattered from this fit.           

I'm so sorry Addison.