The Thing that Differs Us...

Decided.

Addie sucked on my collarbone. As before, I sat on his lap, my thighs sitting on my calves. Legs folded. He was sitting up, so he could reach and kiss every part of my neck and lips. I took off his shirt. I kissed his neck. His shoulders. His bare chest. His cheeks.

'Zar..' he groaned.

'Mm?' I said, kissing his temple.

'You know that we can't go further than this, right?'

I stopped. He was right. I slowly leaned away from him. I held his hands. Staring at him, where he leaned on the headboard.

I sighed.

'As much as I want to... We can't.' he mumbled

'I know.'

'We can't. It's illegal for you to have sex under 16.'

'Not if you have my consent. Plus, lots of people have sex under 16.' I pointed out.

'I know but it's not only that... But just the fact that I'm 5 years older than you, it makes me feel like I'm taking away your purity.'

'I don't care,' I ran my fingers through his hair and let my hands slide down the sides of his face. 'Please. I know we agreed to not have sex but I can't resist you. You are too... Irrevocably irresistible.'

He breathed heavily. I could see he was trying to make a decision. I kissed him again.

'Zar, I don't know...' he whispered unintelligibly in the kiss.

'Addison, it's okay.' I pressed my lips harder.

'Are you sure?' he asked, I could hardly make out what he was saying but I managed to squeeze out a 'Mmhm'.

Addison moved down lower into the bed, me not pulling away from him for even a second. I was on top of him, but felt like he should.

'You want to swap places?' I asked

'Okay.'

I rolled off him and he climbed on me. He took deep breaths. I felt his air caress my skin. I took breaths too, I was nervous.

He cleared his throat, hesitating to take my leggings off.

'I got it...,' I looked at my leggings, in between Addie's body, 'Alright..' I slid my clothing off my legs and tossed them on the floor.

I heard Addison swallow. He was nervous. I tugged at his jeans. I unbuckled his belt, unzipping his zipper. He peeled the thin, dark blue jeans off his perfect legs and carelessly flung them to the side. We both lay on his bed in our underwear. I suggested something that would make this situation less awkward.

'How about we get under the covers?'

'Yeah. Good idea.'

The sheets stretched over Addison's back which created a small 'cave' for me underneath him.

I puffed out air, picking up my torso and unclasping my bra and dragging it off. Then slipping my underwear off down my thighs and off my ankles. My hands, by instinct, hid my chest.

'Don't,' Addie's hands gripped my wrists gently and took them away 'You're beautiful.'

Addison slid his boxers off too. It took all this time and more for us to just take layers of clothing off of our bodies. We were both so nervous. Even though Add had done it before.

After a few moments, Addison had the wrapper. Soon, he and I were ready.

'Okay,' he breathed 'Focus on me, okay? Look at me.' He intertwined our hands together.
I sighed. Breathing.
'Is it going to hurt?'
He kissed my forehead, 'Maybe a little at first but it will be okay. I promise.' he reassured. He glanced down then at my face.
'Just... Focus on me.' He moaned.
I felt it like, push in. It did hurt though.
'Okay, Addie, slow down a bit,' I groaned. My hand squeezed Addison's. I thought that I had broken his knuckles.
'Sorry.'
I stared into his eyes. I was wincing in pain as he pushed up further.
'Are you okay?' He whispered.
'Mm..' I murmured 'Yeah.'
He kissed my forehead again. Then my cheek.
'Shall I keep going?' He asked gently.
'Sure.' I answered bravely.
'Sure?'
'Yeah.' I said
'Yeah?'
I nodded.
'Okay.' He held his breath slightly and got into a position so he could go again. He thrusted forward and back, moving his hips against my body. Some unusual, bizarre animalistic sounds escaped from my mouth. But his moans were probably the most sexiest thing I've ever heard.
'Okay, okay.' I whispered inaudibly.
With every thrust, a grunt would escape from him and me. Both.
Slowly, he started to finish. He grabbed a couple tissues and cleaned it up. He collapsed beside me with an exhale. 'Come here.' he muttered.
I rolled into his arms and felt his skin against me. God. Did I just have sex?