My Stream of Consciousness - 1

Love problems

Do you know what it feels like, to love someone? To want to give them everything? To stay with them until you or they die?

And then you find out they're already with someone?

If you don't, then welcome to real pain.

Pain so sharp it hurts more than being scooped open with only a wooden spoon.

Pain so persistent it follows you into dreams.

But you pretend. You pretend you aren't upset, and you go on with life and they stay your friend. But on the inside your heart has shattered into a thousand pieces. Inside your stomach is churning, and your head is spinning. Your lips are puckering, longing to feel their mouth against yours. Your hands are clenching, out of not anger but fear that they will discover how you feel.

But you still love them.

That's what it feels like to lose your only love, the spark of light that illuminates the dark cave that you are, the wings you need to fly.

Your only shimmer of hope, snuffed out.

And I'll never stop loving you...

Dustin.