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cold

I feel cold.
Theres snow out side so it must be cold.
But im not just talking about that type of cold.
Im talking about emotions.
I'm freezing
I feel close to nothing
But i still feel
I need fire
Fire to melt the ice
To make me feel again.
I don't wanna be cold
I don't wanna freeze.
I try to entertain myself in hopes to be warm.
But im still cold.
I am freezing
The only thing keeping me warm is the thought of the future.
Thats my fire.
I hope one day someone comes and helps me melt the ice.
I hope the fire i have doesn't burn out.
Im not in control of the fire.
I just try to stay warm.
The fire is the sight of hope in the future.
I don't want it to burn out.
My heart it aches it pains. I don't know what to do i feel as im going mad.
I want to cry but i can't. I want to yell but i can't.
I want to smile but it hurts.
What do i do now.
I feel cold.