We all have a moment of darkness and loneliness. Some more than others and some longer than others.
I have had many long dark time and times where i felt i had no one.
But not so long ago i have had a small shimmer of light. The light came from someone i least expected it to come from. It was from the person who put me in the darkness.
I was sad, scared and felt alone, but this person reminded me i wasn't alone. If the person is reading this i want to thank you. Thank you for giving me hope for giving me hope for the future. Thank you
But every now and then i enter a deep pit of sadness and this. I've been here before.....it hurts to be here, but i got used to it once. Maybe just maybe if it doesn't go away.....i could do it again. At the moment i can't I've been away from it far too long and it kills me.....you were right when you said i seem dead for a bit...its cause i was and still am...maybe not physically but emotionally i am.....but i am surprised you notice....cause none of my friends nor family can tell that i am suffering from this pain that i can not bare. I needed someone to take me out from here before and you did now im back in here and scared to leave cause if i do i might be thrown back down here. Theres times i feel like im out where i don't feel so sad. Then i remember the year i had and i fall back down cause there will be times now i won't be able to have the happiness or the joy i used to have. It wasn't joy that came from what i did but what it was. It was kindness from someone who knew me for who i am who i really am and showing me that i wasn't alone and could be happy with them...i now wait for the light after the darkness again.
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شِعرHere I write poems but I may make a new book as a continuation to this one but I don't know
