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left alone to change alone

I had someone I was close to and wanted to stay close with the person.
But that person left me alone in the prison of my own thoughts.
These thoughts mocked me.
These thoughts were my hell in my mind.
And behind it all.
I felt alone.
These thoughts caused changed in me.
It caused me to no longer hold the respect and loving feeling I had to the person.
If man let's man guide him then both men shall perish.
If a blind man follows a blind man.
Both those men will fall off a cliff.
I always hoped to be able to smile and have you there to see me grow.
Instead I was mourning.
Asking why aren't you here to help me.
With ease I realized I should not care what you think or do.
If you keep promises or not.
After all I was the one who did everything I could to stay true to the words I said.
These thoughts sunk as heavy as lead.
What was one told and said.
Wasn't what set your mold nor what molded me.
It was what was done that molded me and what you felt was right that molded you.
Trust in no man.
I know this now.
How could I have had hope for happiness when happiness never stays with me.
I now have someone else in mind.
I am scared to try and be happy for I fear it would end just the same as the last of my relationships did.
They both ended the same exact way.
I was left and they failed to keep a promise. I didn't ever want to compare you two but the ended has all the same similarities.
Now with ease I say i fear for what will happen next