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steps

I had feelings.
I was shy to tell you.
I told you them.
And you told me yours.
We took a step forward.
I was happy.
My smiles weren't faked.
I had felt joy.
Then it happened.
You took a step back
i tried to take a step forward
but as i did....
You took a few more...
Now i look at you wanting you to look my way.
I call for you.
Can you hear me?
Just look at me for a moment.
I took one more step in hope to grab your attention.
I didn't work...
I started taking steps into my cave.
Where i am alone.
And my pain becomes me.
Something comforts me now...
Its dark i went too far in i can no longer see the light.
There's a difference in you and i.
You had people with you.
Me i had no one but this pain to be here for me.
No one helped me.
No one took a step to make me feel happy.
I take steps to help others.
Yet no one is there for me.
No one takes that step for me....
Death i wished for.
I wanted to die....
But i didn't want die...
I cried myself to sleep.
I told my best friend of this pain...yet no one was there for me...
She wasn't there for me....
I'm tired of taking steps....
I couldn't grab your attention....
I couldn't grab anyone's attention....
I wait for someone to take that step for me....
I fear no one will....
I guess I'll be alone....

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