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my sins

I am a sinner
I do my best not to sin
I do my best to stay pure.
I lost most of my faith but i still stay close to God.
My heart has been broken.
My soul no longer hopes.
I have sinned.
I have wished to never have been born.
I have wished have been dead by now.
I no longer find purpose in life.
My sins are against myself.
I don't like myself.
I hate myself.
I hate the fact im breathing.
I want to die but i can't pull a trigger and don't want to tie the noose.
I pray for strength.
Each day i get only enough to make it through that day.
I had sinned against myself far to much.
I don't have a future to look forward to.
Everything is Gone.
I keep thinking without you I'm nothing.
I said that to you before.
Now i don't have you, i don't feel you.
And i know that I'm nothing.
Not worth the thought.
Not worth caring for nor loving.
So oh lord tell me why.
Why isn't it i keep getting hurt.
Oh lord why must you put me through pain.
Oh lord why can't i have the future i planned with someone.
Oh lord i feel like in nothing.
So why is it you spend so much time with me....
Why do you love me!
No one else does whu would you love me....
I'm worthless, but yet you found worth in me.
Lord i have sinned and i am a sinner must time remind me of the days i was with someone. The tine when i was happy.
I want her to be happy....but what about me! Oh lord i prayed to you to make me happy! TO FILL MY EMPTY HEART! OR LORD WHY I FEEL SO EMPTY! LORD PLEASE ANSWER ME........i no longer want to live and that is my sin....