Through my Optics

Recovery (part 1)

I saw this picture and I was like this is fucking adorable now...on with the chapter

SteelWing POV

I've been in my bedroom for the past 2 weeks. The others are starting to get worried I can feel it. But I ignored it and would go on my new cybertronion laptop and try and look up Energon mines and stuff that would cause help to the Autobots. A knock came to my door. I look over and I tried to get my confidence and then spoke. "Come in" my voice shaky as always since I came back. Dad came in.

"How are you holding up?" He asked and I turned off the laptop and went over to him. "I don't know anymore" I said and he pulled my arm into a hug. I hugged him back right after. "I'm sorry...I wasn't there to Protect you" he said and I kept hugging me. It was better if he didn't know what happened on the ship...he would do something Wheeljack would do and go for revenge.

"It's not your fault I was reckless with saving Miko...but after what I made Bulk feel I couldn't let Megatron get away with it..I should've contacted you or something but I was-" I was cut off. "Reckless" Dad finished off and I sighed. I got what I was expecting to get for the consequences of going against the dark lord.

"My injuries are healing and they will be fine" I said and then Ratchet came over and I broke our hug. "I need a word with SteelWing alone" as soon as he said I knew it was about the scars under my armour. Dad nodded and walked out when Ratchet came in and Locked the door. "Is soundproof nobody will hear" he said and I nodded.

"What's the matter?" I asked and he sighed. "One of your scars...is different to the others I scanned...I was hoping I could look at it" he said in a nervous tone and I nodded. "What one?" I asked and he pointed to my stomach. I sighed and took off my stomach armour it was painful and his eyes widen at the deep wound that has been healing slowly and painfully. "Are all of them like that?" He asked. "Most of them...but some..some are barely visible" I muttered. "What did they do to you?" Ratchet asked and I sighed and turn around.

"Dark Energon,synthetic Energon, some illness they were testing but I was mostly how long I could last on dark Energon." I said and Ratchet looked at me with soft optics. "How are you still online?" He asked and I smiled. "The matrix of life keeps the cybertronion alive until the matrix is ripped out of the cybertronion so...I can't die" is aid and Ratchet optics widen.

"It doesn't matter Ratch...you have the others to worry about" I said and turned away from him. "It's your mental health I'm worried about...go for a drive...the others haven't seen you in 2 weeks..." He said and I spun quickly. "OK IM SCARED!" Ratchet was stunned. "In scared of anyone else getting hurt...I'm scared for myself...that ship made me something else..." I turned from him holding back tears. "It made me a monster.." I muttered the last part.

Ratchet sighed. "I'll leave you...I see you have a lot of processing to do" he said and the doors opened then close. I sat on my chair where my laptop was and put my helm down and used my arms to hide my helm and cried. I cried until I fell into a dreamless recharge.

Ratchet POV

I growled as I left SteelWing  quarters and I went up to the  screen and started working on  synthetic Energon. I needed to finish it...for all of the Autobots. I didn't realise that Optimus was in the room and put his servo on my shoulder plate that made me jump. "Are you ok old friend?" Optimus asked and I sighed. "SteelWing...I don't like seeing her like this" I said and went back to work.

A few hours later Bumblebee came in with Arcee,Bulkhead and the children. "How SteelWing" Miko asked. the mention of her name made me flinch and Miko noticed it.

"Bad then" she sighed and caught the others attention. "I shouldn't talk about it" I said and that's when Smokescreen grabbed me. "What are you hiding!" He yelled. He's been close to SteelWing so has bumblebee and Its obviously affecting his judgement. "Her wounds are perfectly healed..it's her mental wounds that won't...she lost a lot of things on that ship...one being her dignity" I said.

Arcee knew and so should the others. There expressions went from shocked to anger. "THEY DID THAT TO HER!" Bee beeped and I nodded. That's when Optimus came in. "Why didn't you tell us!" Smokescreen yelled at Ratchet and then looked at Optimus.

"What did I miss?" He asked walking over. "Might as well tell him" Arcee said and I gave her death eye and growled. "Arcee was the first to know..so tell us...what did you see when you found Strelwing?" I said to her and she sighed. "In magnetic chains...beaten and broken...and...her armour was on the floor...they...they stripped her of her dignity" she said and Optimus suddenly ran into SteelWing room.

Not there...she was gone.

Optimus POV

I ran to her room only see see nothing. "Scrap" was all I said. "STEELWING!" I yelled and came back to the others. "She's gone..." I said and Ratchet grumbled. "She couldn't take the bridge so she can't be far!" Smokescreen said and I nodded. "Me Arcee and bumblebee will be group one. Ultra Magnus,smokescreen and bulkhead will be group 2" I said and they nodded. "Transform and roll out!" I say and we did and the groups went our separate ways to find our missing prime.

Sorry it's short I'm just tired and want to get some sleep.