Shawn Mendes Imagines

Hold On {Trigger Warning}

WARNING
This chapter has topics that some may find triggering, please skip this chapter if you're sensitive to topics like self harm.

{Y/N's POV}

"Shawn, please," I begged. I heard him sigh from the other side of the locked door before it opened. I stared at his figure on the floor with tears running down his face. I sat down next to him as he leaned his head on my shoulder.

"I hate myself, Y/N. you don't understand." It broke my heart seeing and hearing him like this.

"Trust me, Shawn. I know what you're going through." He shook his head and buried his head in his hands.

"No. Nobody does." I sighed and rubbed his back as he continued to cry. "I just don't understand why people do this." He mumbled. Shawn had been bullied for the past year over his singing on Vine, I never knew it got to him this much.

"Because you're talented and they're not. They can't do half the things you can, Shawn. Why can't you understand that you're better than them?" He looked into my eyes for the first time that evening. Not being able to look into his teary eyes for much longer, I wrap my arms around his torso and bury my head in his chest.

After a few minutes of sitting on the bathroom floor, shawn's sobs eventually died down.

"Shawn, can we move into your bedroom? This floor is very uncomfortable." He chuckled and nodded. I stood up and grabbed his arm, making him wince in pain. I released his arm and glanced at his face which was filled with guilt.

"Why does your arm hurt?" I asked. He looked at the ground and sighed

"Please don't make me say it, Y/N." I held his arm in my hands and gently pulled up his sleeve to reveal red cuts all along it. He instantly broke down and cried into my shoulder. I rubbed his back before grabbing his hand and bringing him into his room.

"Shawn, you know I love you." I said, my voice cracking slightly. He lifted up his head and his eyes softened immediately

"Baby, why are you crying?" He asked.

"Because," I wiped a tear before continuing "I love you, Shawn. I can't imagine a life without you." He sat up and brought me into a hug. I rested my head on his chest as his phone kept vibrating. We both glanced at each other before Shawn grabbed it. He threw his phone onto the floor before storming into the bathroom and locking the door. I picked up his phone and saw comments from his bullies.

"Shawn open the door!" I yelled and banged on the door. He mumbled a 'no' as a sob escaped his lips. I paced around before taking a bobby pin out of my hair and picking the lock. After many unsuccessful tries, I eventually turn the lock and burst the door open. I rushed over to Shawn who was stood at the sink and staring into the mirror and immediately wrapped my arms around his torso.

"Why do they do it, Y/n?" He whispered. I shook my head and turned him to face me

"I don't know, Shawn. But please just ignore them. Hold on for me, for everybody that loves you." He took a deep breath slowly and nodded.

"Alright, for you." He smiled and wiped away a few falling tears.

"I love you, Y/N."

"I love you too, Shawn."