Shawn Mendes Imagines

Happiness

{Y/N's POV}
I watched as Shawn and Camila talked, it was like I wasn't even there. I leaned my hand on my fist and looked around, trying to distract myself. I sighed and stood up and walked over to the drinks table.

"Hey, Y/N!" I turned to see my close friend, Madison. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her.

"Madison, it's been so long!" I said. She nodded and we pulled apart.

"Where's your boyfriend?" I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

"With Camila. He invited me to this event and he's not even talking to me, he's been with her the whole night." I explained.

"What a douche," Madison said. I laughed and nodded.

"Hey, Y/N. Can I talk to you?" I turned around to see Shawn. I looked back at Madison.

"I'll catch up with you later," we said our goodbyes before Shawn took me outside.

"Why did you walk away?" He asked.

"I just wanted to talk to Madison." I lied. Shawn sighed and shook his head.

"I, um, need to tell you something." He said. I nodded, signalling for him to continue. "When you left, to see Madison, Camila kissed me." He said.

"Oh." I said simply. "Did you, did you kiss her back?" I asked.

"No, not exactly,"

"Not exactly?" He blushed and scratched the back of his neck.

"Well, I did at first. But then I pulled back as soon as possible," he said. I nodded and looked down at the ground.

"I'm so sorry," he said.

"Do you- do you like her?" I asked, afraid of the answer. He sighed but didn't respond.

"God, I'm such a dick," he laughed and ran his hand through his hair.

"No, it's alright." I said. He looked at me with confusion. "I thought I'd be mad, but if you like this girl, I don't want to hold you back." I said.

"But I love you too, Y/N," Shawn said. I shook my head and held both of his hands.

"You don't love me, Shawn. You just want to make me feel better. And if I really love you, I wouldn't prevent you from finding happiness. So go, I'll just leave." I said.

"No, Y/N. Please be mad," he pleaded.

"Why would I be? Sure, I'm upset, but I can't control you." I said.

"Because I'm the biggest idiot out there, I cheated on you! I can't live with myself without you yelling at me." He said. A single tear rolled down my cheek as I looked into his eyes.

"You are the biggest idiot. But I still love you, I can't be mad at you for something like this,"

"Come on, Y/N. Don't you understand how shitty I feel right now? Just yell at me, cuss me out, slap me!" He yelled. Luckily there was nobody else around.

"I'm not going to slap you," I chuckled. Shawn sighed and looked down at the ground.

"I really am sorry," he said. I smiled weakly and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"I know you are. Good luck, Shawn." I said before kissing him on the lips once more and turning around. He didn't call after me like usual, he didn't grab me and spin me round. In some ways I was glad that he didn't do that, he would finally be happy with the one he loves. However, the selfish part of me wanted to keep Shawn in this relationship. But I knew I had to put his happiness first.