Have you ever been in class and you just don't want to do any work so you stop paying attention. You stop caring about the upcoming test or whatever you need to be learning in class and you just let your mind wander. It's dangerous to let your mind wander, you'll either get upset or you'll remember something you don't want to think of. Regardless you let you mind wander.
You start staring at something without noticing.You stare off into the distance while you let your mind wander. You think about what's happening in your life, what's stressing you out, a boy, a girl, your best friend, something that stuck with you throughout the day or even a distant friend that you don't talk to anymore. Tension builds up and emotions begin to surface. You tell yourself that you can't let you emotions show. In school all you can do is be hyper, smile, laugh, act normal and be emotionless and heartless. You bottle up your emotions in school. They can't be shown or else you'll be regarded as weak and sympathetic. It's like shutting a door in the face of your emotions and then when you're alone you let that door open and your emotions slap you in the face. They all flood out, but now's not the time for our emotions to come. You shut the door as hard as you can and start thinking. Is it the someone who broke you and left your life and you know they won't return and at this point you don't care and don't think about them yet they somehow come across your mind for less than a second before they're blocked out or the exams hovering over you eager to stress you out and make you study. Is it that comment made by a bully towards you that you know is true but brush it away. Is it missing your friend yet in this era it's so easy to talk to them, we have phones and computers and laptops and so many mobile devices.
You zone back in to the world after hearing your name, a slight nudge on your shoulder snaps you back to reality. You see your friend with a concerned look on their face asking if you're OK. No I'm not but all that comes out is a small smile and "yeah, just tired". You look up and see what you missed and it's almost the end of class. You've zoned out for half an hour, while it only felt like 3 minutes.
