Now, THIS is your chapter Weronika.
Background story ; a month into first year and you were alone in the middle desk in the back. Around like 10-15 people were in the class also but they were all in little groups scattered around the room and I remember I was alone too. Then you just stood out to me. The way your hair caught my eye, and the way you were slouched over, self conscious maybe and eating your sandwich. I remember feeling so nervous approaching you. I was scares you'd be a bitchy girl and tell me to get lost, but aside all that I shook it off and came and just sat beside you and ate my own lunch. I remember I had a sandwich and biscuits and we just ate and I remember you giving me such a strange and confused look while I avoided eye contact. Then I was like "Hi, I'm engi" and you WERE SO AWKWARD! but after that we got closer and closer and we talked more and more and it felt like every day I loved you more and more and looked forward to going to school because we had all classes together. A few months in we were inseparable. We were best friend.
Second year, I remember the first day if school me and you saw each other and we ran and hugged ❤. Then we were waiting for kamila (our other be best friend) and ran over to her and just jumped on her with a hug. It was perfect. I loved it. We have that bond. Inseparable. Love. Teasing. Jokes. Friendship. All those were just in the air. I felt every single one of those. Second year, we found our love for L. We had the ups and downs. Mostly ups. I think we only had like 2 fights in second year which only lasted like a day then we made up. We had those moments where you just sat with me and comforted me because I was upset. We also had those moments where we'd do the weirdest dares and be insanely weird. You were with me with everything that happened with A and you were with me every single way. Thank you❤. They're just like 3 out of 196362922182628286279194.
Third year only started a few months ago but no fights so far. You were with me when people I loved left my life and you stepped in like a freaking angel and you slid right in like "HAYYY IM HERREEE" You filled the gap and you stand at the bottom of NY breakdowns with your hands out ready to catch me and hug me till I finish crying and then help me back up on my two feet and you slap the dust off me and hold my head and feed me words of support and encouragement and you just give me so much support that it means so much to me that I don't know what I'd do without you. You're also there when I have another one of my breakdowns over text, I know you get mad at me sometimes but you don't show it and you help me no matter how hard you want to hit me. You also surprise me in the best ways ever. Like the unicorn plushy you got me for new years. It's in my wardrobe so every time I open it I see it and pet it and smile and just remember you. You spoil me so much. Like what did I ever do to deserve you. You were so supportive with everything that it means so much. It also means even more that you still have that letter I wrote you in first year. And the one I wrote you recently ( I think). It means so much to wake up and know that someone out there loves me the way you do❤❤❤.
Us obsessing over L. It's crazy and we're crazy but I love walking into a class we have together and seeing you pop up from the back seat like "OI IM HERE COOMMMEE" And it always makes me smile so much. Then even before I sit down you're like "ok so" and I KNOW you saw her and ready to tell me what happened. Looking for L around the school is honestly so stressful like you never know when we'll go around a corner and see her. And that squeak that I do whenever I see her. I SWEAR IT'S SUBCONSCIENCLY I don't mean to but it just comes out.
Babe, I'm so thankful you are in my life, I can't wait till Cambridge and we're adults and living in the apartment /house together and going out shopping and clubbing and just being sisters (more than we are I guess) but I just can't wait till you have to plan out my wedding and I plan yours and I can't wait it till I call you at the hospital with my Nathan and Evan but tbh you'll be the one in the room with me and the first one I call when it all happens. I can't wait till that phone call I give you when that something happens *wink wink*🤐😉😉😉. I can't wait knowing that we will be together in the future and into our adulthood. It just makes me feel like I have a future but I can't imagine it without you there as my best friend /sister. I love you so much.
References that we make every day just stick and it's great. Eg EEEEEEEEisha, L, water fountain, dare copy, "shy in the streets, sexy in the sheets", piano, irelevent , pizza, beach, gelato, abrakabra, hostess, fifth year, hippy, travel and so many things.
Where the hell were you all my life but I'm so glad you're in my life now, you're here when I needed you most and you just appeared. A freaking angel and savior. I know my granddad loves you so much that you take care of me like you do and I know he's so proud of you for helping me be who I am. I think he's watching us from heaven smiling at us. I miss him. ANYWAYYYYYY I LOVE YOU BIIICCCHHHH I AINT EVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU....... BBIIITTTTCCCHHH.
I know that I'm a mom to, (since weronika doesn't bring lunch normally I make sandwiches and share and I make sire she gets all her nutrients and vitamins Eg. I made sandwiches with lettus and tomatoes and stuff because she likes it that way and I cut them in half and got them ready for us and I cut watermelon for us cuz why not and I got cereal bars and plus I'm ready to spoil her tomorrow) and I'm such a girlfriend (not dating) we just act like a couple minus the kissing and touchy and we aren't a couple. It's actually great and I like it tbh. We act like sisters and I WISH WE WERE GOD DAMMIT. But weronika, I love you so freaking much and no one can ever change that and without you I'm just lost and confused and life is just black and white and it's so dark without you in my world. Yet you are my world and you mean everything to me. I seriously can't live without you and days without you are lonely and annoying. When we meet up, you have the patience of a god and you just stick with me. You're with me through thick and thin and I can tell you such personal girly things casually and it's crazy you know my cycle yet comforting. With other people it's weird and awkward telling them stiff but with you, I can tell you anything my wild head thinks and you would be totally casual with it. You listen to my dreams and you encourage me and the dreams I have at night you listen and laugh.
You're just perfect in every single way to me and I absolutely adore you. You mean everything to me. Thank k you so much for entering my life. Never leave it please. I Iove you. ❤❤❤❤
