Do you ever just... Want to curl up and die. Like.... Die. That life isn't worth it anymore and that you're just so sick of everything.
First it starts of with you not wanting to be around the people you once always were around and always wanted to be with. Then it goes to making excuses about small things and getting away from it. After that you just want to sleep whenever things get hard because sleep is an escape. It's just a place where you're.... Safe. Safe from... Everything. Then it goes to wanting to sleep and not ever wake up. Then after it it's just.... Dying.
Why are humans so afraid of death? It's amazing. It's the end of suffering. The end of living in pain. The end of emotions. The end of stress... It's just.... The end.
Dying doesn't mean you'll miss those around you because you can't feel anything. Yes those around you suffer but... It's selfish but you're at peace. Everything is over.
Whether you believe in afterlife or not... Wouldn't it all be better after we die? Everything that hurts now will be gone. Vanished. Away. It all just won't matter.
We all get one life and they tell us to live it to the fullest but some don't want to fucking live it so yes, do help them but stop being so close minded about everything. People harming themselves is their choice and you don't know the shit happening in their lives to just walk in and tell them not to do it because we both know that that bullshit doesn't help. People do need help but open up your minds please. Find their reason. Everyone has a reason. Maybe all we need is a hug when we're thinking about it and someone to tell us it'll be okay and just hold our hand. Maybe that's all we need. If we were shown kindness and love then maybe we wouldn't hate this pitiful life so much and wish death upon ourselves.
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Guys, don't mind this. If you're ever think about suicide please dm me or someone that you trust. That was just my rant because writing is the only place I can express myself truely without the fear or being looked at weirdly.
