Welcome to Depression a monster inside us Depression a demon trying to make our life hell giving us pain making us go insane we keep fighting the demons they get stronger we grow weaker depression mood swings sad
to moody,angry,hurt,suicidal, broken,
lost and many more emotions
Depression just one cut my Demons say it will take the pain away it will fade for a while your feel better but depression will come back and destroy you again your always in
darkness in your mind there's no clear sky it's water,chains,cages and darkness and a path and your all alone in this horrible place no one
is with you at least mentally no one
is around Depression drowning in thoughts the water gets deeper you sink deeper hoping a hand will pull you out and bring you to the top sometimes its gaping for air welcome
to feeling numb its the same as empty so you can't feel emotions your just existing like you wake up but you don't think your alive its like everything died inside you Then
there's the second numb where you can't feel physically so like you could put your leg under a hot tap it could be burning you and you wouldn't feel
it when your physically numb you do anything to feel but nothing works and having them both is hell feeling sad crying tears so many tears they won't stop falling hardly sleeping
because of break Downs where you cry and shake and your in so much pain its like your completely broken everything hurts you scream because it hurts so much its like knifes
stabbing you it don't stop and you can't calm down might have problems breathing at times the breakdowns tire you out especially if it's everyday Break downs can be from feeling no emotions to feeling everything at once or self hate or past trauma it can be anything a smell a noise song ect
Could trigger one a person
Depression feeling tired everyday sleep can't fix it because your fighting thoughts everyday plus when you wake up your still in that horrible place your trying to survive but its hard you do what ever you can just to make it through the day and night you
look sad people ask what's wrong but what's right you don't care you are just interested aren't you? depression
suicidal thoughts saying why was I born I'm a piece of shit just die i deserve to die no one cares jump
out the window I'm a disappointment I'm a failure I'm not good enough I'm worth nothing I should walk into a road full of cars I should go on the train track and wait for the train to kill me I should put a toaster in the bath so I get electric shock and die and many more horrible thoughts like i should hang my self,shoot my self, cut to the vain and bleed out, take pills over dose ect
dark thoughts get darker everyday sometimes your at peace then it hits you again like a wave then your just in a darker place then you was before
Depression having no motivation to do home work or anything you have stuff that needs to be done you try doing it but you have no energy its a struggle to get it all done but your to exhausted to do it so it can get left for
weeks or months like even having a bath or brushing your hair can be tough your always so low on energy you could eat sugar your still be Low on energy eating to much because your so empty you want to fill in the space but the food does nothing or
under eating because your too sad or just not hungry you don't want to eat anymore because you just don't feel like food Isolating from friends
and family not wanting to go out wanting to lock yourself in your
room and just stay in bed and pushing everyone away is a huge sign because then Suicide is easy for them Because there think it won't hurt you because they kicked you out their life they
didn't mean too depression took over they wasn't at fault they had no control anymore and Planning your will early also anyone suicidal will have plans to do it so look for
weapons Like ropes etc all look for a suicide note look at the music they listen to could be a cry for help look
On their phone or what ever they use
you might be surprised what you find
Giving things away Like clothes or anything because they know there gonna die so they don't need it doing dangerous things is a sign like crossing the road without looking
or not wearing a seatbelt Saying things like I won't be around much longer I just want to sleep
Make it stop I can't do this
anymore it will be over soon
You won't miss me if
I die so why not die
Depression fake smiling saying I'm fine when really your crying Inside
Depression laughing but is it funny?
But really your Screaming for help
Smiling and laughing Is to mask
The pain someone feels so you don't worry about them
Depression lies oh its just the cat no I won't cut me suicidal nah I'm
good,I'm better I'm cold its
because I don't want you to see
my scars or cuts I promise I ate
more I did eat but there lies depression turned you into a lier
Depression starts small I don't wanna get up I don't wanna get dressed can I stay in bed?
I don't wanna eat I don't wanna go out
I don't wanna do anything then it hits to I just want to sleep I don't wanna live let me die many are depressed but they don't know because they think their thoughts are normal and actions but are they?
No but because we have them everyday we think they are and that is the problem
Poem Is About
What its like
to suffer with
Depression
and that it's
not something
you want to have
YOU ARE READING
poetry Of Healing
PoetryPoetry is what I write when I don't feel alright its a place I can express my self I made poetry to help my self and I posted it on here so I could look at it everyday I didn't expect people to read it also I don't need help I'm just writing how I f...
