poetry Of Healing

😭Once a girl💔

There was a girl who never wanted to die
For all living was all she wanted but when
Her mind became dark and chains suddenly
Apeared she didn't want to be here the crying
in the early morning when everyone is asleep
she cries tears she has her head phones in as
She plugged them in she puts the music louder
to scream because the pain is destroying her
she tries to stop the tears but they fall fast like
rain and it never stops she has no one to hold
her when her heart breaks she really needs a
break as her mind is bully full of hell and misery

her head is always flooded with thoughts of fear
she wants the thoughts to stop but she's had them
for so long like a horrible song saying she's ugly
and fat and worthless to don't forget a disappointment
no one wanted you the list Is to long to repeat the words
but it's a ring in her ears that never goes away she just
wished the bully would go away for they abuse her
everyday and night even when she sleeps they appear
when she awakes she waits for the bully to ruin her
day she'll talk to friends and laugh with them to just
to ignore the thoughts isn't that what we all do?

she dances in the midnight rain just to forget about
her pain she'll take photos of her self then post them
online she don't care about the likes she just wants
to be alright she prays she'll see her self as beautiful
pretty and nice but then her head always feeds her
lies like mean,loser and annoying to dont forget
no one loves you she tries to tell her self there
just lies but they repeat in her mind all the time
she wants her friends to know there gorgeous
,stunning and pretty and handsome to she wants
to remind them people love you as your smart,
amazing and kind to I'm saying the truth tho
they see it as a lie it makes her cry as to her
there her world everyday she could want

and more she just wants there pain to fade
away she can't help so she writes all day
trying to find a way to help them through
all there pain they suffer with she really
wants to you to but you all live far away
and it's sad to say I can't hug you tight
and be by your side but she enjoys
your company all the time tho some
are busy she understands this to
she's just all alone her real life
friends friends hardly text or call
she misses them all she was told
not to be clingy or get to attached

I guess she failed that because she can't
help but care she knows life is not fair
but she tries to be postive she can be
but negativity is what runs inside her
to cover up her pain you think she does
it for fun when really she's just numb
emotions are hard for her to feel she
doesn't even know what she feels is
even real when she can feel all she feels
is pain aw she's drowned in this awful
game sometimes she can't breathe
because the bully is so mean She
wants to try harder and be better
and kinder but she's lost in her head