(GxG) Friends Can Break Your Heart Too || JENLISA (COMPLETED)

18 - Fallout

Flashback

Lisa was shivering down to her bones as her best friend delicately wrapped a warm blanket around her body. She has been freezing when the other girl found her waiting outside in the cold for god knows how long.

"What was so important that you'd even wait all night out there in the cold?" Jennie chided. She was a bit infuriated for the tall girl was always doing stuff like this without properly considering the repercussions of her actions.

"Maybe I just miss you." The blonde pouted. In truth, she already forgot about why she even came here in the first place, but that would have sounded silly and would have infuriated her friend more, so she opted to go with this answer -It's true anyway, she did miss her.

"Silly girl, you just saw me a few hours ago." The brunette shook her head in disapproval but the small frown on her face was now gone as a small smile was visibly tugging at her pink lips.

"Don't act like you don't miss me too." The blonde scrunched her face up, making the other girl chuckle at her adorableness.

"Okay, maybe just a tinsy little bit." The petite girl rode along.

"Just a tinsy little bit?"

"Okay, I miss you so, sooo much! Better?"

"Mmm hmm." Lisa hummed comfortably in her friend's bed, finally feeling content at the answer given to her.

"Silly girl." The brunette shook her head once more and stood up from her bed.

"Where are you going?"

Raising her hands up, the brunette chuckled, "Chill! I'm just gonna grab some medicine", she said.

"Oh."

When the petite girl finally came back, her friend was already sitting up, ready to receive whatever medicine given to her. "Here." She handed her friend the medicine and a glass of water which the other girl immediately took.

"Thanks."

The blonde placed the glass of water on her friend's nightstand when she was done before she lay herself comfortably on the bed, while the brunette eyed her with a frown. The brunette exhaled a long sigh before voicing out her concern about her friend's reckless and stubborn behavior, "You shouldn't always be this stubborn, you know. There are times when it's better for you to just let things go so that you wouldn't end up harming yourself."

She gently caressed her friend's soft and strikingly beautiful face. "You should think about yourself more, okay?"

Staring back at her friend's troubled brown eyes, the tall girl couldn't bring herself to look away or disagree. Thr petite girl could have asked her to jump off a building and she would do it in a heartbeat.

"Okay."

Satisfied at her friend's answer, the brunette finally exhibited her adorable gummy smile, which the other considers as the loveliest of all smiles, before leaning down to give her friend an affectionate kiss on the forehead, and making the other girl's heart stop beating for a fraction of a second.

"Goodnight"

The blonde's sick looking face immediately lit up, and breathlessly, she replied. "Goodnight my sweet angel."

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Lisa

Pitter patter. Pitter patter -the sound of the rain hitting the roof above her room.

I shivered as the cold air sipping through my skin and made my bones rattle. November is already nearing it's end, and the harsh cold of the late autumn air has been intensified by this damned wheather.

Hugging myself to draw warmth from my body, I suddenly got a feeling of deja vu, and a pained smile made it's way to my lips. It has been exactly a year ago when I snuck out of my room to give my friend a visit but ended up waiting in the cold for hours.

It seems as if it has already been a lifetime ago since it happened but the bittersweet feeling that the memory has brought upon was strong enough to overwhelm me, making me absentmindedly walk towards my windows and draw the blinds up for the first time in a long while. And as if on instinct, the first place that I directed my gaze is towards Jennie's room, and to my astonishment, I found myself drowning, once again, at my favorite pair of enchanting brown eyes as it stared right back at me with a defeated expression. It's depths, which used to contain an intensity that could rival that of the sun's, now looks so empty and abandoned.

With the faint light of the moon illuminating her strikingly familiar face, I was able to see how miserable she looks like, yet a dark part of me, the part that wanted to make her feel as much torment and grief, temporarily reveled at this.

It's only fair that both of us are hurting.

But the longer I stared at the void within her brown orbs, the more I felt my heart clench and twinge, making me regret my shameful and wretched thoughts.

'No. I never wanted this.'

I never wanted to see her hurting, and god knows I tried my best to prevent anyone from putting just as much as a small frown on her face but, ironically, I ended up being the one to hurt her the most even though I tried my best not to. I tried to keep things between us the same, and did my best to feel happy for her but I just can't. I couldn't bring myself to pretend like everything is okay while I am slowly wilting inside, like a flower depraved of sunlight.

'You should think about yourself more, okay?'
You told me once, and now I understand.
No matter how much we want things to work out, there's just some things that couldn't. So I'll take your advice, even though I can't imagine my life without you, even though I can't breathe without you, I would have to be strong and do this for myself.

As if understanding my thoughts, Jennie's sad expression slowly melted into the air and her eyes began to fill up with a certain kind of resolution, which made my stomach sink and my throat clog up in dread.

This is it.

Every road ahead leads towards this path, and nothing we could say or do is gonna save us from this inevitable fallout.

She gave me one final and resolute glance, and I took this opportunity to memorize her face even though I know every little details of it right down to the light beauty mark just below her left eyebrow. Without breaking our gaze, she slowly retreated away from where my eyes could gaze at her in the moonlight. This is for the best. I know it is, but it's still killing me to see her walk away after all that we've been through.

She's the only thing I know like the back of my hand, and she's the air that my lungs breathe in, but it isn't as simple and easy between the two of us anymore.

"Sorry." I whispered in the chilly night air, hoping that the night air will carry it to her ears. "This isn't easy for me too, but I have to let you go."

Finally, I also stepped away from the moonlight, with her woebegone face still lingering and haunting my thoughts.

I'm sorry.

Someday I'll be able to stand on my own, and maybe then I could finally feel genuinely happy with you, but until then...

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Playlist:
Breathe - Taylor Swift

AN:
I caught a cold like Lisa lol 😂

Btw, if you don't want to get tired of waiting, I could recommend the first girlxgirl book that I've read. This super angsty book made me obsess about friendship and blurred lines.

'Her Name in the Sky' is the title of the book and it is written by Kelly Quindlen, and it's currently on sale in Amazon! ❤️

Just don't forget to prepare yourself because this shit will leave you feeling heartbroken.