This is a story of how your friends can hurt you in many different ways---may it be by breaking your trust, your promises, your expectations, or maybe even your heart.
Summary:
It has always been Lisa and Jennie ever since they were young. They were...
Sitting at the passenger seat of my boyfriend's car, I yawned probably for the tenth time already, earning me a worried look from my boyfriend who is currently driving on our way to their house.
"Late night?" He asked.
"Nah, I was just not able to sleep properly last night." I answered with a shake of my head. Yesterday was Christmas eve but me and my parents didn't really do anything much aside from going to a fancy restaurant for dinner since we aren't really that religious and don't practice the same Christmas traditions as most Americans do.
"We're you nervous about having to spend Christmas with us?"
"Sort of." I answered vaguely. I will be officially meeting the rest of his relatives tonight so I was indeed feeling a little bit nervous, but not to the point where I'll be losing some sleep because of it. It was a totally different matter.
"Don't worry, I'll be there with you all night, okay? Tito(uncle) Antonio and Tita(aunty) Rowena will surely love you. As will their evil, yet adorable twins."
"As will I, I'm sure I'd love all those relatives of yours that you're always talking about." I chuckled as I turned on the radio of his car. He always talks about his uncle's family for they are his only relatives here in America, and I have gotten to know a few things about them. Like how his uncle and aunty had just migrated here from the Philippines five years ago. His twin cousins were only 3 year old that time and they used to speak Tagalog, but now they could only understand a few sentences.
Another yawn escaped me, urging me to close my eyes to have a small nap for the remaining 20 minutes of our ride. The slow melody wafting through the car just lulled me further so I decided to finally give in and indulge myself a few minutes of rest.
'..Adia I'm empty since you left me...'
My eyes snapped open as my ears tune into the song thay is currently playing on the radio.
'..I searched myself and everyone to see where we went wrong..'
As I heard this line, all traces of my sleepiness suddenly ebbed away, and I trained both of my ears to listen to the rest of this stupid song which reminds me of my best friend. I've told myself a thousand times to stop torturing myself by not dwelling on our ruined friendship, but there's just something about the song that made me want to listen to the it just a little bit longer.
**Listen to the song Adia by Sarah McLachlan
Listening to the song, it was tearing afresh some unhealed wounds that I've tried so hard to patch up. It made me momentarily feel vulnerable of all these unwanted pain inside my chest but still, I listened to it for another minute more. A fresh set of tears was now threatening to fall from my eyes but I tried to hold it as best as I could. A month has already gone by since the last time I cried and I won't let this song make me do it now, so I immediately tuned the radio up and searched for any channel that is playing a more lively song.
"Is everything okay?" Donny asked, glancing at me with a concerned look.
I took a deep breath and tried to put on a small smile to reassure him, "Everything's fine!" I replied. At least I hope it'll be.
Sensing my sadness, Donny slowed down the car and pulled over at the side of the road before turning to look at me. "I told you earlier, I'll always be here with you, not just for matters like family reunions, but also for anything else." He uttered sincerely as his adoring brown orbs stared intensely into mine. He didn't need to tell me this because I already know it. He's the only person I'm drawing my strength from right now, and I honestly don't know how I could have continued like this without falling apart if it weren't for his constant love and support.
"Thank you," I smiled with a strengthened heart and resolve. I'm done letting these painful feelings continue to spin my wheels and make me feel like this any longer. If Lisa doesn't want to be friends with me any longer then I wouldn't keep on shoving myself to her anymore. This isn't something that could be easily worked out, and if the time comes when she finally choose to come back to me and make me understand everything that went south between us, I still don't think that I'd be able to forgive her that easily. And besides, I was always the one to apologize in the past bo matter if I was the one in the right or wrong. She's not good at apologizing and I've always let her easily get away with it, but not this time.
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I felt Donny's soft but manly hands intertwine with mine, making me look up to him. "I love you." He said, making me feel a hundred times better than a few seconds ago. "I love you too!" I said back with a contented smile.
I always thought I wouldn't be able to get through my life without my best friend by my side because we have been with each other for as long as I could remember. Getting on with my life is especially hard since everything just reminds me of her. Just like yesterday, I wasn't able to get a good sleep because Christmas reminds me of all the times we celebrated it together. If our non-religious family celebrates Christmas by simply eating out in fancy restaurants, you'll be surprised to know that Lisa's family don't participate in any of the Christmas festivities at all since they are Buddhists. Because of this, Lisa had always celebrated Christmas with my us, but this year, the Manobans had gone to visit Thailand so my parents weren't able to invite my best friend to join us. But even if she was here, she would've probably made some sort of excuse not to go, so it's probably for the best that she wasn't.
This isn't the first time that the Manobans had gone to visit Thailand during the Christmas holidays, so I could at least pretend that it was like those times in the past.
I was getting along just fine before yesterday even without my best friend by my side, and having her on the other side of the globe just puts my mind further away from thinking about her and our broken relationship. Out of sight, out of mind.
I'm sure that moving on will take a lot more than just putting my mind away from the problem, but with this loving and caring boy by my side, I just know that I'll be able to eventually heal my wounds and pick myself up from the ground. He had given me the strength I needed to overcome these trials, and with each day that I wake up with a wounded heart, the more I become stronger from the pain.
There will come a day when I'll wake up, only to find out that my heart has already been healed up.
-- Playlist: Stronger - Sara Evans
AN: I know you guys don't like Donny but he'll still have a major role in this book. And to those asking if this is still an FF book, yes it is. Hahaha patience is a virtue.
