(GxG) Friends Can Break Your Heart Too || JENLISA (COMPLETED)

35 - Stay

Jennie

"Goodnight." As Lisa uttered that word, a biting surge of alarm has risen from my chest, casting uncertainty and unease on my gullible heart. Her dark, smoldering eyes burns through me, capturing all of my essence as if this is going to be the last time she's ever going to have a glimpse of me during this lifetime---like Halley's commet passing by.

"Good night." I echoed, biting the word that's struggling to come out of my mouth---stay---for I'm surely going to regret it if I let it leave my lips.

Finally, she flashed one last lonesome smile before turning away with some parting words that I was too distracted to make out.
I just watched on as she walked away, her goodbye still ringing in my ears.

This girl had caused me so much anguish, so damn if I do let her in again with my heart still torn on the matter of handing her my trust once again BUT DAMNIT! Her silhouette retreating into the night causes me so much unrest and frustration! I simply loathe seeing her walk away from me like this. Yes, I did turn her down when she asked to be friends again---yet here I am, longing to come chasing after her, begging for her to stay.

Let's slowly let this go.

I willed myself to resist, but the more her figure blends into the dark, the more I wanted to scream and curse at her for making me feel this way---like I might just have made the most regretful decision of my life. On her final steps, I was instantly gripped with an overwhelming panic, making me blurt out---to my horror, "WAIT!" I didn't even realize how loud I was until I heard my voice echo, piercing through the silence of the night.

I must have lost my mind.

In slow motion, Lisa whipped her blonde head around, the shadows eclipsing her fiercely beautiful features. I thought her eyes might have been glistening with tears, but I may have been wrong, and it was only a trick of the sparse moonlight.

"Umm I..." I opened my mouth to explain myself; to make up an excuse, but what came out is the opposite. "I don't have any plans this weekend! Let's meet here at...at 10 in the morning!" I hollered, and I swear her face instantly lost its gloom, and in its place is something radiant and alluringly beautiful. "I--I'll see you on Saturday!" I quipped, before hastily turning away and shuffling inside our house without waiting for her response.

Face scrunched up in worry, my mom asked As soon as my mom saw me enter the back door, "Jennie are you okay?"

Not wanting to trouble her, I shrugged in response and plastered on a pearly smile as I changed the topic. "Yes mom. What's for dinner?"

Dotingly, my mom announced that she had prepared my favorite, but it barely raised my spirits up. I was still feeling  queasy and bothered about my earlier encounter, but as to not get my mom suspicious of my internal struggles, I quickly gave her a kiss of gratitude on her cheeks and lent her a helping hand on setting up the table for dinner.

As my small family of three dined, I forced myself to gorge down the food even though it tasted bland and unappealing due to my lack of appetite. I wanted to be by myself in the comforts of my room, so when I finished it all off, I hurriedly proceeded to my room after I placed my plate on the sink, telling my parents that I have some homework to finish (I already finished all of my homework but they don't know about that).

When I was alone, I finally allowed myself to drift back to the scene earlier and replay everything that had transpired. I didn't know what had possessed me to invite Lisa to hang out with me this weekend; I'm not even really sure if I was free or if I already had prior commitments. Now that I've become more calm, I do recall having set up a date with my boyfriend this weekend. Crap. I guess I would have to cancel it; surely my boyfriend will understand.