You (Jhobea)

Chapter 23

Sobrang sakin na katawan ko at parang di ko maigalaw ang par ko. Hung ulo ko parang mabibiyak.

Ano bang ginawa ko at parang nabugbog ata ako. I remember being in Batangas, Jho shouting at me for lying then breaking up with me. I remember driving back to Manila.

Oh God! That little kid!

That's when I remembered that I got into an accident. I remember trying to at least remain conscious to check if I ran over the kid. But I couldn't because I passed out due to the impact.

One good thing though is my memory is still intact that means I don't have brain damage and my headache is just maybe because I hit my head in the steering wheel.

I slowly opened my I eyes to confirm where I was. Tama nga ang hinala ko, nasa hospital nga ako. I must have disLocated my shoulder kasi Naka arm sling ako. I also have a bandaged head and some bruises in my face.

I saw dad's things in the sofa near my bed. They must have called him when I got to the hospital. I wonder if Jho knows. I wonder if she still cares or if she was serious with breaking up with me.

I saw my phone in the side table and decided to check the date.
It has been two days since the accident. I must have really hit my head pretty bad for me too be unconscious for that long. I wonder if Jho visited me while I was asleep.

Wala kasi ni isang tawag o message galing as kanya. I hope she was not serious about the break up at Nadala Lang siya sa galit niya. I would chase after her pero sa kalagayan ko ngayon Baka matagalan pa. I don't want to lose her and even if she was serious about the break up I ain't signing the divorce papers she's stuck with me.

But that wouldn't be fair to her, I wouldn't want her to be imprisoned in a marriage that she did not want and to a person she did not love. Ayokong pilitin siya. After all, the main goal is still to make her happy with or without me.

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. Hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako. The thought of not being with Jho gives me a certain kind of sadness na Hindi ko pa naramdaman kahit kailan. I am a freaking lovesick puppy that even if I am all banged up because of the accident all I can think of was if she still cared about me, if she still wants me. Kahit na parang wala na pag-asa dahil ni anino niya wala dito as hospital.

Bumalik na si Dad. Kinausap niya daw hung doctor ko. They still wanted to confine me para daw na observe pa pero sinabi ko na okay na ako and Kung pwede sa bahay nalang ako. Ayaw pa sana niya pero I insisted.

Dad talked to me about the accident and I told him why it happened but I omitted the part where Jho and I fought. I assured him that I was okay and that I want to rest sa condo ko. Wala na kasi akong gamit  sa bahay. He also told me that he tried calling Jho pero nakapatay daw phone niya. Sina mama Lovell nalang daw ang sinabihan niya tungkol as nangyari sakin.
Bumaba na si Dad para asikasohin ang release papers ko.

After a few minutes ay may pumasok sa kwarto ko. I thought it was dad but it was Ella and Jia. Si Jaja daw ang nagbalita sa kanila tungkol was nangyari sa akin. Jaja also told them that Jho was being her usual grumpy self and would not listen to anything related to me.

"Sub nalang muna kami for now Bei. Yung syota mong hilaw kasi nag iinarte. Okay ka lang ba?"

Sasagot na sana ako pero naunahan ako ni Jia.