You (Jhobea)

Chapter 24

I was stunned by what she did.

She freaking kissed me.

She is still kissing me.

I wanted to respond to her kisses. I miss her so much and I just want to make her feel that. But it just doesnt feel right to be doing that when there is clearly a lot to talk about.

I stopped her just before I could give in to my urges. She gave me a look of confusion.

I kissed her on the forehead and held her hand.

"As much as I would love to continue, we have a lot to talk about. Plus I need to take my pain meds. You hurt my shoulder when you pushed me to the cabinet when we kissed. "

I said while massaging my shoulder. I saw her cheeks turn red before looking away and sitting in the bed.

I held her hand and led her to the living room.

"I'll drink my meds first before we talk. Masakit na din ulo ko."

Just as I was about to go to the kitchen she hugged me. I could feel my shirt getting wet because of her tears.

I hugged her back and kissed her forehead.

"Shhh.. its okay Jho. Please stop crying. You know I hate it when you cry. Nasasaktan ako."

I dont know why but she cried even more. Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko kaya I did the only way I cant make her stop crying.

I cupped her face and gave her a passionate kiss which she reponded to with equal passion. My meds, shoulder pain and headache was forgotten as we made our way back to the bedroom.

We were kissing passionately,  I was lying on the bed and she was on top of me. I placed my hands in the small of her back just enough to touch her skin.

Her kisses shifted from my lips to my jaw and down to my neck. I can barely contain myself so I switched our position.

I kissed her with more passion and longing. I made her feel how much I missed her. My kisses started to go down to her jaw then to her neck. I just copied what she did to me. I was running on pure instinct here.

And just before we could go further, my brain kicked in making me overthink.

Fck Beatriz alam mo ba ang ginagawa mo.

You have not exactly done it with anyone.

What if hindi niya magustohan?

Are you both even ready for this?

My stupid brain reminded me. I realized that we cant do it. Its too soon.

I stopped what I was doing and laid down beside her.

Humarap siya sa akin as if asking why I stopped.

"I dont want to take advantage of you Jho. We broke up remember? I really wanna talk first before we do anything we might regret in the future."

She moved closer to me and gave me a quick kiss.

"You're such a baby. You are my baby. If you insist on talking first we will talk. But you cant stop whats bound to happen Beatriz. Especially now that we have our own place."

Oh my God Im screwed. Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

I was about to talk when she interupted me.

"Let me talk first. I am really sorry for what I said and did to you. I dont know what got into me that I compared you to my ex.

Please know that you are nothing like him. I admit I was really mad when I found out that you lied to me but I should have let you explain instead of asking you to leave. I am sorry for that.

Lastly, I just want to let you know that I love you. I love you so much and i am sorry again for making you feel na napipilitan lang ako o na hindi kita mahal.

I hope you can forgive me babe."

Mahabang sabi niya.

"I have already forgiven you babe. Inisip ko nalang na baka 1st day mo o kaya malapit ka na magkaron kaya ganon yung reaction mo.

But I only have one request, when we fight can we make sure that we settle it before we go to bed? Ayokong matulog na magkaaway tayo. Okay?"

Tumango siya bago niya ako yakapin.

"I love you baby." Bulong ko sa kanya.

Saglit siya humiwalay sa pagkayap sakin at tiningnan ang mukha ko. She had a mischievous look in her face that tells me shes up to something.

"Now where were we?" She was about to kiss me when I stopped her again. She had this annoyed look in her face that is too cute to pass up. I pinched her cheeks.

"I have a secret to tell you. But please dont laugh at me or think less of me."

Tumango siya kaya nagpatuloy ako.

"I dont know how to say this so I will just go straight to the point. I have not exactly done it with anyone and Im afraid I would disappoint you." Tinakpan ko ng unan ang mukha ko afraid to see her reaction.

Dahan dahan niyang tinanggal ang unan at inilapit niya ang mukha niya sa tenga ko.

I swear nagtuyuan lahat ng mga balahibo ko sa katawan sa sunod niyang sinabi.

"I have not done it with anyone else too but I wanna do it with you. Only you. "