You (Jhobea)

Chapter 33

BEA

Sinundo kami ni dad sa condo ni Jho kanina since hindi ako allowed magdrive ulit sa Pilipinas. He reminded me about our talk pero nakiusap ako kung pwede matulog muna and after dinner na kami mag uusap.

Gusto ko sanang mag order pa ng food pero hindi pa ako handa na makaharap si Jho after ng kahihiyang ginawa ko kagabii. Marami akong tanong sa isip ko especially noong nakita ko ang loob ng kwarto niya sa condo. Pero saka ko nalang yan iisipin. Ang importante maging healthy ulit si Jho for next season.

Kinausap niya nga ako after dinner. Sabi nga ni Ben hindi daw umalis ang lolo niya whole day. This time sinabi niya sakin na I cant talk until matapos siya. Alam kasi niya na hindi ko nanaman siya patatapusin pag dumating na kay Jho ang topic.

Hindi naman sobrang haba ng usapan namin. Actually di umabot ng isang oras.

Dad actually found out about what I did for Jho. When I was in the states. I dont know who told him. Maybe someone from the hospital management.

Di pa talaga dapat mag tatrabaho si Mika. But when I heard about what happened to Jho, I practically begged and bribed her to be Jho's surgeon. My dad is an investor in the hospital Jho is in, so it wasnt hard to convince them to assign Jho's case to Mika.

I know how much she loves volleyball. Frankly kahit hindi na kami magkabalikan eh. Basta lang ma okay siya at magrecover siya sa injury niya.

Yes its true that I am a physical therapist now. Nag aral ako ulit sa states. I wanted to help people recover. I will not be able to go back as a surgeon na kasi. My hand was not the same after nung ginawa ko after Jho left me. I regretted doing that because I couldnt practice as a surgeon anymore. Pero masaya na ako as a Physical Therapist. Masayang makita na nakakatulong kang bumangon ulit yung mga taong may injuries.

Anyway, yun nga, Mika was not supposed to work pa kasi vacation pa sila ng asawa niya. Ipapakilala na nila ang isat isa sa pamilya nila for the longest time na nag tago sila sa states. No one actually knows that they got married sa states except me, Ben and Dad.

I owe her an all expense paid trip for two dahil sa paghandle niya sa case ni Jho. But super worth it naman. In all the years that I was in the states hindi ako nag open ng social media. I know I would be tempted to stalk Jho. Ayaw ko din pag usapan namin ni Dad.

Nung nagkita kami sa party ni Dad halos maiyak ako nang sabihin niyang okay siya. Na masaya siya sa married life niya.

Magaling lang talaga akong magtago ng emotions. Buti nalang din dumating si Miks nung time na yun. Nasave ako. Sa mukha palang ni Jho alam ko na nag assume siya na kami ni Mika. Lalo na nung tinawag niya akong babe.

Pang asar lang kasi namin yan sa mga girls na lumalapit sakin nung nasa states pa kami. She knows about me and Jho and alam ko sinadya niya yung pagtawag sakin ng babe to protect me.

FLASHBACK
"Bea mag usap muna tayo sa baba. Tulog naman na si Ben diba?"

"Yes dad. Sunod lang ako". Inayos ko muna ang higaan ni Ben. Tapos sumunod na kay Dad.

"Anak, I dont want to meddle in your personal life. You are doing an amazing job raising Ben. But do you really want your son to grow up without another parent? And ikaw, hangang kailan mo pipigilan ang sarili mo?"

"I know naman Dad. Hinay Hinay lang wala pang 1 month since nakauwi ako. As for my lovelife, Im not sure if makakahanap pa ako ng tulad ni Jho. Dont get me wrong Dad, I tried. I dated when I was in the states, wala talaga eh. I guess I have not moved on from Jho. I thought I did, pero when I saw her today andon parin lahat."

"Kasalanan mo din kasi yan anak. If you just let me talk about her then you would know. Its not too late pa naman anak. May chance ka pa, that is if you would take it."

" I would do that if there really is a chance. But she is happily married. I dont wanna be a homewrecker dad."

Binatukan ako ni dad.

"Anak wag tanga. Im your dad, do you think I would tell you to take a chance if she is really married to Rex? That's all I can give you. Its up to you what you will do with that information."

Tumayo na si dad at kiniss ako sa cheeks. Matutulog na ata siya.

"Goodnight anak. If you do decide to take that chance wag kang mabagal, baka maunahan ka na naman. Hahaha"

Pano pa ako makakatulog neto.

For the first time in years, I decided to open my social media accounts. Nagstalk ako kay Jho at hinanap ko sa internet kong naging engaged ba talaga si Rex at Jho. It turns out Rex is married to some other girl now.

Now I feel stupid. Im super happy sa balitang natanggap ko. Ako lang pala talaga ang tanga. I deserved that batok from Dad.

END OF FLASH BACK

I spent the whole week planning about how I can get Jho back. Mejo naduduwag kasi ako eh. I may look fit and more confident pero tiklop ako when it comes to Jho.

I did date other girls pero hanggang first date lang lahat. I just dont feel like Im ready. After a while tumigil nalang ako and settled as a third wheel to Mika and Alyssa.

Hindi ako nagpakita kay Jho the whole week. No text or calls kahit alam ko yung number niya. In short naduwag ako. Kailangan calm and collected padin ako sin PT niya ako. Kailangan pagalingin ko muna siya.

Pano kami lalabas kung ganon. Gusto ko kasi this time ligawan siya ng maayos. Kasi diba dati arrange marriage kami. Di pa kami magkasundo.

I also decided na sa isang proper gym kami magtherapy para she can have the condo as her space talaga. Ayoko naman isipin niya na pumupunta lang ako dun dahil sa therapy.

Kaya kinulit ko si Jaja kung saan gustong gym ni Jho. Isa din yan sa mga ginawa ko this week. Kinausap ko ang management ng gym kung pwede may area kami don sa exclusive for Jho's therapy kahit isang oras lang. of course magbabayad ako.

I have to also get my Philippine license renewed this week. Ayoko namang magpahatid sundo kay dad o sa driver namin parati.

The whole week I was super busy with stuff Jho's therapy. Kaya at the end of the week I was super exhausted. I needed to rest sa weekend and also spend time with Ben.

Gusto ko na talagang makita si Jho. Pwede naman talaga pero maghihintay ako sa Monday kasi pagpinilit kong makita siya magmumukhanlang akong ewan dahil sobrang pagod ako.

To Jhoanna de Leon:
Good evening Jho! I will be at your condo tomorrow around 9am for our therapy. See you.

As soon as I hit send nagsisi ako. I sounded too transactional. Yung parang wala kaming pinagsamahan. Nainis ako sa sarili ko pero hindi ko na mabawi. Nasend ko na eh.

Nagreply naman agad si Jho.

From: Jhoanna
Okay. See you.

Yun lang. What did you expect Bea?
Basahin mo daw yung text mo.

Nagreply ulit ako ng goodnight pero hindi na siya nagreply.

Ugh.

Tinulog ko nalang yung frustrations ko. Wala naman na akong magagawa.

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Sabog update since hindi ako makatulog. Edit ko lang to pag may time ulit.

Matagal na to sa drafts ko. Hindi ko lang mahanap ang timing pa mapublish. Here it is.

Si Tito Elmer na kumikilos para sa anak niya. Masyadong mabagal eh.