His Hired BedWarmer (Enticed Series 1)

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Chapter Thirty-One
I'm Sinking

Reys

I took the day off. Bihira kong enjoyin ang paglalakad sa mga mataong lugar. The weather is gloomy but the city seems lively.

Inayos ko ang shoulder bag kong nakasabit sa braso ko at naglakad sa mga boutique na nakahilera. Napapatingin ako sa mga new arrivals na suot ng mga mannequin. I've never worn something that expensive. Lagi ko na lang nilalagpasan ang mga ito.

I was about to move on to the next shop when someone appeared in front of me. It was Rohan who doesn't seem to be in his office attire. Nakapants lang ito ng itim at naka leather shoes. Polong itim naman ang pang-itaas nito.

Tahimik lang ako pero ang dami ko nang nasabi sa isipan ko. If I've got the guts I could've hugged him the moment I saw him. But all I could do is to stare at him and satisfy my heart with his face that I missed for the past days.

"How do you feel about going on a drive with me?" parang gustong tumalon ng puso ko nang sumilay ang ngiti sa kanyang labi.

Sumama ako kay Rohan. We've been drving for like two hours then we decided to stopped by the river. The place is peaceful and the wind is rough here. Napayakap ako sa sarili ko nang bigla na lang lumakas ang hangin.

"Sorry about everything," pagkasandal ko sa kotse ay bigla siyang nagsalita. Nasa unahan kasi siya at para bang nahuhumaling sa tanawin ng paligid niya. I have to admit that this place is one of a kind. From here, you could see a wide view of the sunset.

"I've always been bothered by your silence, minsan napapaisip ako kung ano bang laman ng isipan mo. But I always refused to ask because I know...answering some questions is painful," napayuko ako at hindi ko alam bakit ako napapangiti, but that wasn't real...

"Rowin and I are twins...and he's the rebellious one," umismid naman ito. "I was always the silent one but I'm the worst..." naramdaman ko naman ang biglaang pagpalit ng tono ng boses nito. I could feel it, it's lonelier this time.

"Hindi ko alam kung ano bang nangyari sa akin. But all these years I always feel like I'm alone and I don't have nothing untill I met the woman who fixed me but she also broke me."

Napaangat ako ng tingin sa kanya, how I wish I could see his face but I could only stare his back.

"She was my world...now she's just a memory that will always hurt me..."

I felt a pinch from my heart. Perhaps, for the first time I could feel the true burden he's burried in his heart.

"She was trying to save me from myself but little did she know, I already lost myself even before that..."

Naglakad ako para lapitan siya. I couldn't face him, so I hugged him from the back. He's got cold heart but I always love the warmth he's giving off whenever he's near to me.

We are both defined by a broken life but I haven't given up.

I heard his soft sobs, maybe he is still trying to surprass his tears. But I'd like to see more of this weak side of him. For me, it's the coolest.

Napakalas naman ako sa pagkakayakap ko sa kanya nang bigla siyang humarap sa akin. "Look at me, I'm not a strong man. I have a lot of flaws and I am sinful." Hinawakan niya ako sa balikat ko.

I smiled...

"I don't need a strong man..." I cupped his cheek as I wipe his tears. "I don't need a man who doesn't have flaws."

"...and I don't need a good man," I felt a tear rolling down on my cheek. I guess my heart is overflowing. With all this time that we've been together perhaps my heart did reach him a bit.

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Napatingin ako sa sarili ko sa salamin matapos kong maglagay ng moisturizer. Here I am again, in his house...in his bathroom. We had a good dinner a while ago. Honestly, I have been enjoying this day. I hope it could go on like this for a long time.

Lumabas ako ng bathroom at nagtungo sa kuwarto. I saw Rohan by the window glasses while he's drinking whisky.

"Do you need to warm your night?" I asked him.

"You look pretty," napatigil naman ako nang sinabi niya iyon. Ngayon ko lang narealize na nakakatitigan na pala kami.

"You can warm my night then," he smiled a bit. I was about to remove my robe but he stopped me. "By sleeping next to me..."

Napatiuna sa paglalakad si Rohan patungo sa kama. Nilapag niya ang baso ng alak niya sa side table. Sinundan ko siya. Suddenly I had the urge to kiss him.

I locked my hands on his neck while kissing him with all the pent-up feelings I've got.

I love this man...

I really do...

I know that by now.

Kung puwede lang baluktutin ang tadhana at sabihing sana kami na lang ang para sa isa't isa, gagawin ko.

But that is up to me and to him.

If he would take me as his woman forever...

Inihiga ako ni Rohan habang patuloy pa rin ang halikan naming dalawa. "You're so warm..." he said when our lips separated. He lend his arms for my head to rest. He pulled me closer to his body. I like his hands resting on my waist and my face burried on his chest.

"Mukhang makakatulog ako nang mahimbing ngayong gabi," saad pa niya.

"You're really a great bed warmer..." my heart is beating so fast and it's impossible to calm it now. Yumakap ako sa kanya at sinubukang ipikit ang mga mata ko. I'll have a good sleep tonight in the arms of the man in my dreams...

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