In the name of 'Friendship' [COMPLETED]

33: Casualty

"Our time together is never just quite enough."

"Derek." I moaned into the kiss which was muffled by his lips moving firmly against mine. This time, it was more needy and lustful as compared to the slow, gentle one last time.

His hands slowly making their way up from my waist whereas mine were wrapped around his neck pulling him close, absolutely loving the intimate contact with him.

"You're so beautiful. I love you." He whispered in my ear gently bitting my ear lobe making me turn red.

"I love you too." I mumble pulling him by the collar of his shirt and pressing my lips against his, passionately.

Beep•Beep•Beep•

I woke up all hot and bothered with sweat dripping down my forehead, again.

I've been getting similar dreams since that night and I swear it seems real every fucking time. The only thing different this time was 'I love you'

Don't you like it when your brain stimulates such images into dreams? Things you so desperately wanna be real, the deepest desires of your heart into a dream only to have it broken because of your stupid alarm clock!

That was reality slapping across my face.

Disappointment.
Thats all I have been feeling lately. I don't even know what to feel disappointed for anymore. Falling for my best friend or assuming that he too was in love with me.
After Ben, loving someone seemed like a foreign concept to me until Derek came into my life. He robbed my heart with his cocky pick up lines, inappropriate jokes, caring nature, the sound of his laugh and not to forget, his hypnotising blue eyes.

Since the past year, everything in my life has been about Derek.
Those endless clubbing nights, one day outings, adventures and trips, everything has been about Derek. It was like he was dominating my life and now with things difficult between us, I was afraid to lose everything. Afraid to be the lonely girl with no friends and social life, nothing to look upon to in life.

I definitely do not regret falling for him. I regret not being able to stay as a best friend with him. These silly dreams have made it so difficult for me to stay normal with him as whenever I'm with him, all I can think about is how soft his lips feel against my skin.

However, I gotta get over these silly dreams and that night, no matter how special it was for me. Its definitely not as special as Derek. Yesterday, I agreed to meet him today for lunch and hopefully we'll be able to overcome this and leave this awkward phase far behind. I just want to go back to time where I could just smile with him and goof around.

It was going to be a lazy Monday today as I took the day off from work and was looking forward to meeting Derek. I spent most of my morning cleaning, organising my cupboard and grooving to some music.

I got a call from Derek around 11.30am.

"You're still up for lunch, right?" He asked hesitantly.

"Yes."

"Great. The River Café?" He asked.

"Alright." I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"Pick you up at 12."

"See you."

I just threw on a casual t-shirt with two watermelon prints and knotted it up with a pair of olive green shorts. I wanted to look good but nothing over the top. It was just a casual lunch.