My Someone (an o2l mostly Trevor moran fanfic)

Chapter 43: explain please

Sarah's P.O.V

As soon as that baby came so did the hate.

People who were my biggest fans turned and DMed me all these threats.

A hashtag even trended for me to get an abortion and leave Sam.

So I left him.

I thought if I left, his life would be easier.

Everyone's would.

Hannahs mom and my dad took me in and then I met chandler.

I started as an extra on the walking dead, and slowly made my way up to be his girlfriend on the show and in real life.

I took a bus and trains and a lot of subways to get to New York.

And the hate didn't stop.

Anyone who saw me gave me looks and muttered "slut"

Everyone hated me.

I even hated myself.

And I hate myself even more for not telling chandler.

I knew if i did he wouldn't love me the way he did.

He would've told me to go back to California.

I found out what Sam named Madison from twitter.

I also found out that Tyler (Oakley) was partially taking care of her when the crew was on tour.

Then one day they all pop up in my life again.

And I honestly didn't realize how much I missed Sam since I left him when he walked through that door.

I wanted to hug him, beg him to take me back but then I realized, he never tried to find me.

And I guess I never loved him.

But I did. I don't know why I told him I didn't love him when he was the only person I could think about.

But I couldn't leave chandler.

He walked through the door and I lifted my head from writing.

"Hey." He said.

I smiled. "Hi."

"You do realize you need to go back right? You can't just leave them again. Why didn't you tell me? You have a daughter and you just left her?"

"Chandler... I only left because I had a terrible life."

"So you don't run from it you try to make it better, your being a coward."

"Chandler!"

"I can't love someone that just left a whole lifestyle and claimed you were dead?!"

"Chandler, please!" Tears were gaining.

He held my face firmly.

"Do you love me."

"Of course I do chandler."

"I'm having a hard time believing it." He turned away.

"Your ruining lives Sarah." That stung.

"I never meant for this too happen."

"Just like you never meant to get pregnant, you never meant for Hannah to get hurt, you never meant for Sam to go depressed. And you never meant to hurt so many people. Not just the closest people in your lives, your fans that looked up to you... They have no one to turn to now. Get your life together then come back."