Carnation [PJM] *EDITING*

H day 39

According to Seokjin, Namjoon was coming over today, and by your guessing, it was for him to try figure out what has happened. Namjoon got through, and to break your heart even more, you found out something you wish you had known earlier.

"Namjoon?", you spoke as you saw Namjoon standing on the opposite side of your door.

"Can I talk to you?"

"Yeah, I guess, come in." Namjoon walked himself over to your desk, pulling out the chair and moving it close to the bed. You sat on the beg cross legged as he awkwardly fiddled with his hands. "Is it something important? Did Seokjin set you up to this?"

Namjoon's head raised, looking at you with worried eyes. "He's worried for you. He thinks- he thinks that you- how do I say it."

"Namjoon, I promise that I'm fine."

"Do you remember a few years back? A few years after you met Jimin when Jin fell really sick?"

"Yeah, eomma was really worried about him."

"You saw how his fatigue started falling, the bags under his eyes growing deep, his facial structure becoming hallow, his eating patterns becoming irregular, locking himself up in his room. It sure reminds me of someone."

"Do you know what was wrong with him?"

"Yeah, I did. So I think I know whats wrong with you."

"What're you talking about?"

"Do you have hanahaki, Y/N?", Namjoon noticed how you're face had dropped, how you opened your mouth and took in a deep breath. "If you do, its okay, you've just got to tell me. Tell Seokjin."

"Namjoon I- why- I cant-"

"You have too, you're gonna get through it some way, you've just got to tell someone."

"I-", you were close to saying that Jungkook knew, but you were scared they would find out about him. "Why are you asking?"

"How else would I know? You're reminding me of Seokjin when he was sick."

"I'm sorry, I know I need to tell him but I-", you're voice box stopped working as you shuddered in tears.

"Seokjin", he spoke, the door opening from the side of you revealing a crying Seokjin staring at you. Namjoon stood up, giving you a knowing look before walking past Seokjin and closing the door.

"Seokjin, I was-"

"I know, princess, I know. You know I'm here to talk."

You ran into his arms, crying into his shirt as he wrapped his arms around you. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I know I should've told you first."

"Say it, princess."

"I have h-hanahaki, jin", the words broke you, you haven't openly said it, Jungkook just knew.

"Its okay, Princess. I'm here, I'll help you."

"So- I'm- Jungkook-"

"Jungkook? What happened?"

"Jungkook has it too."

[18//08//20]