Carnation [PJM] *EDITING*

H day 114

For the first time in a while, you  were spending the say alone. Seokjin had gone out on a date with Namjoon, Jungkook was on a date with Taehyung, and Hoseok was out with some of his his old high school friends as they were in town.

Your metabolism had been dropping in this past week, and today seemed to be the worse. You hadn't been spending the day on the couch in front of the TV watching the current show you were binging, instead sitting on the bathroom floor coughing your lungs out.

It had to be a day when you were alone when Jimin seemed to always be in your mind. You didn't have anyone there to block those thoughts, and you were suffering, a hell of a lot.

You were currently leaning your head up against the cabinet under the sink, not having the energy to sit over the toilet, flowers had started to liter around you.

Your mind was buzzing and you hadn't heard Yoongi's voice flow through to house, while you continued coughing and choking, not intentionally signalling to him where you were.

"Y/N", you looked up from where you were and saw a blurred Yoongi, seeing someone standing there you started to quickly pick up all the petals. Stopping once Yoongi grabbed your hands causing you to stop. You let go of the petals and pushed him away, pulling yourself off the ground. "Y/N, hey, slow down."

You waved him off as you walked out of the bathroom and headed for the stairs, tripping along the way. Once you hit the top of the stairs you figure had already been leaning forward, someone would think your drunk.

"Y/N! Stop", you were pulled back as you were about to take a step. "When I say take it slow, you listen to me, or else your gonna get hurt", Yoongi spoked as he looked you in the eye.

"I-", you went to go speak but your throat was raspy and throbbing from all the coughing, your eyes welling up with tears as you stared at him.

"Its okay, its okay, we'll get you some water, okay? This is all gonna be over soon." Yoongi helped you down the stairs, your knees weak with every step, heading towards the kitchen. He sat you down at the table and got you a glass of water, "have you eaten?", he spoken with his back facing you.

Your head was down and you didn't have the courage to speak up. He's only doing this out of pity, Y/N, its not like he cares, no one does. You were alone, you thought.

"I'll make you something, what do you want?", you stared back at him, not answering his question. "I'll figure it out then."

As he cooked you had your herd laid on the table with your eyes closed, you weren't asleep, you were just trying to conceal the tears. You've never felt so bad about yourself, well during the period of having Hanahaki at least. You felt sick to your stomach, wanting to just curl up in bed, and cry.

"Y/N?", Yoongi tried getting your attention but you hadn't heard him speak. "Princess?", you looked up at him, seeing him standing there with simply ramen. "I made you something to eat", he placed the bowl in front you and gave you the chopsticks as he sat across from you with his own bowl.

You didn't have the intention of eating, moving ramen around as Yoongi continued eating.

By time he had finished he looked over at your bowl, seeing it not even touched, "you haven't eaten", he didn't get a reply, once again. "Are you not hungry?", you shook your head no as you pushed the bowl over to him. He stood with the two bowls in his hand and went into the kitchen, quickly returning and coming to your side.

"We'll get you comfortable in living room, okay?", he held you as you both walked towards the living room, Yoongi place you on the couch and quickly to wrap you in a blanket and putting on a TV show he knew you loved. "Ill be not even five minutes, okay? Just stay here, unless you badly need to get up." Yoongi walked off towards the stairs, leaving you alone as you continued staring off into oblivion.

"Hey Jin, I came over to check on Y/N like you asked, and she's not doing good." Yoongi spoke to Jin who was on speaker phone as he cleaned up the flowers littered across the bathroom floor.

'She was fine when I left this morning, what's happening?'

"I found her in the bathroom sitting in a large pile of petals, she almost fell down the stairs, she didn't eat what I made, and now she's staring off into oblivion on the couch. I haven't head one word from her in the almost hour either. I haven't dealt with anyone with Hanahaki before so I don't know what to do."

'Her metabolisms dropping, mine didn't drop this quick into it and wasn't so quick, does she look weak.'

"Yeah, she looks like she's going to collapse any minute."

'Just stay with her, talk to her, keep her awake. Try and give her water and if anything severe happens call the number on the fridge, its the number we got given when we went into the hospital for her. I'll get home soon but Namjoon and I are two hours out of Seoul.'

"I'll look after her hyung, you know I will."

'I know, and if it gets really bad', there was a short pause in his sentence, 'she may not know it but Jimin still cares a lot about her.'

"I'll be here when you get back, hyung."

'Watch over my princess, I'll be there in a couple of hours.'

The call ended and Yoongi had finished picking up the petals, putting them in a container and leaving it there. He looked at the time and he had already been away for almost ten minutes, quickly rushing down stairs to see a worried Y/N watching the stairs.

"I'm here, I'm here now. I'm not leaving anymore", her eyes became glazed in tears as she stared at Yoongi who was crotched in front of her. "Jin said hell be home in a couple of hours, can you stay awake till then?"

You gave a nod as a smile came on his face, he sat next to you and watched you as you stared off.

"Y/N?", you looked over to Yoongi as he continued to look at you. "I now its because of him, but do you miss him, Jimin?", you nodded as tears were close to falling. "Did it get worse today, because you finally let him go?"

You whimpered quickly as tears stared dropping, Yoongi quickly pulling you into him as he laid down and held you as you cried into his shirt. Sobbing harder as images of Jimin popped in your head.

"Its okay, princess, it'll get better."

After your sobbing had died down, the blanket was wrapped around both you and Yoongi and you slept, with constant sniffles and tear stained cheeks.

"We'll help you get better, princess", this was the lowest Yoongi had ever seen you, you were the sister he never had, and to see you crying over some boy, one of his best friends, hurt him.

And as he fell asleep with you, with tears, he knew he was going to help you, he wouldn't let his little sister and his best friends actual little sister, continue their life heartbroken.

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