Carnation [PJM] *EDITING*

H day 150

You still hadn't woken up.

Each day since you've been in the coma one of the boys have been with you. Jimin has only visited a few times, always by himself, he didn't want anyone to see how much he cried.

He cried over how much pain he put you through, how he didn't know, how he couldn't help. He had finished reading your journal, it now sat on your bed in your house, he's seen and read everything.

You knew he was there, his voice was the clearest out of everyone's, and each time he came back, you could hear everything better afterwards.

Jungkook has told Jimin and Taehyung about his own case of hanahaki, and how it was slowly fading away from the amount of love Taehyung was giving him. Jimin was jealous.

He wasn't able to give you that love, and you weren't able to get it from him.

You both thought you were at fault.

It's the 18th of December by now, and both Seokjin and Jimin we're sitting on either side of your bed, something was different about today, but the two couldn't figure out.

"Hyung?", Jimin has asked as they were sitting in quiet.

"Yes, Jimin?"

"Should I have acted on my feelings during high school?", Jimin was staring at your face, watching the way your eyes would occasionally move under your eyelids.

Seokjin stares at Jimin in disbelief, "you had feelings for her? I thought you were just being you."

"I think I still do", Jimin looked at Seokjin who's eyes were open wide. "I didn't think I had a chance, so I got into a relationship with Soobin. I really did care for her, but I knew she was a distraction away from my feelings for Y/N. Then after reading everything that she's gone through, it all came back, and I wish I wasn't such a coward. If I had just gotten the courage, we all wouldn't be in the position, and Y/N wouldn't be in a bloody coma right now."

Jimin was growing angry with himself, and he quickly stood up to leave the room.

Please Jimin, I need you. You could hear everything, every single word Jimin just spoke, you were telling your body and mind to wake up, you needed to wake up.

Seokjin was watching the door Jimin left through, not noticing the way your hands started twitching and breathing was picking up.

"J-Jinnie?", Seokjin was quick to turn around, seeing your eyes barely open with tears slowly flowing down your face.

"Oh my-Princess!", Seokjin was quick to lean over your body and envelop it. "I missed you so much, I'm glad you're okay."

"Me too Jinnie", Seokjin pulled away from you and also had tears cascading down his face.

"I need to go call the boys, they've been so worried."

"I'm fine now, I'm awake."

Seokjin quickly excused himself and left the room, you could hear little squeals come from him as he stood in the hallway. Soon a nurse came in just to bring you some water and food, congratulating yourself on getting through the surgery and helping you sit up in the bed.

You still had the nagging feeling once she left. The surgery didn't do what it was suppose to. You still loved Jimin, and apparently, no surgery could take that away from you.

Seokjin was quick to return, "Namjoon is going to pass the word along and they'll be here soon, why are you still crying?"

"I heard everything, Jinnie."