Change

Chapter 20

"What why?", I can feel my heart shattering just thinking about a possible reason.

"She apologised, she then went to explain how she had a divorce with dad because he was overreacting over what we did. She never wanted him to kick us out but she was to scared of he would do. She wants to make amends with us, she's actually moving to Canada in a few weeks," Derek says quickly.

I look down at my hands in my lap, playing with my finger. I sigh, closing my eyes due to the tears threatening to spill, "Do you believe her? That she was too scared."

"I don't know, we both made mistakes and they said it is disgraceful to the family. For fuck sakes they even bad mouthed Luke and Sam. They were like our family. When Luke died it took a huge toll on you, me and Sam. It was hard for me dealing with the two most important people in my life who couldn't even talk for weeks. When I found out that Sam was pregnant and lost our baby without me knowing anything, I was heart broken. I was looking for support from my family, and they just kicked me out. They kept me from talking to you, my sister for weeks. That was until Sam called me telling me you needed some place to stay because they kicked you out for beating up 'the one who shall not be named' for bad mouthing Luke. Us two were left alone in the world and that was scary, everything seemed to look up when Sam and I got back together. Then we moved to a different country. This was all way too much change in a short amount of time, and she was never there for us. I can't believe it took her 3 months to realise her mistake. But I believe her. I think you should hear her out."

By now I was crying my eyes out thinking of everything we went through. I think he's right. I know he is. But I'm not ready to talk to her, not yet anyways.

"I'm not ready to talk about it yet, the wounds are still so fresh Derek. I will talk to her, I swear. Im just not ready yet. I was just starting to get ready to this change, I'm not sure if I want that to change."

"Yes of course. Anything you need," Derek pulls me in for a hug as he lets me cry into his shoulder.

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The day went on and soon turned to evening. Derek sat in my room until around 8 before he went to go eat and tell Sam about what was happening.

I stand up to run a warm bath, I put in a bath bomb that smells like strawberry.

I climb in the bath and just relax reading a book and listening to the little radio I have. I was busy reading when I heard it.

ITS SHAWNS SONG.

Freaking out and getting excited for him, I jump out of the bath to run to my phone. I quickly dial Shawns number, he answers within seconds, "Your song is in the radio! Congratulations!", I yell jumping in my spot.

From the other side of the line I hear Shawn laughing.