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Chapter 28

Today is the day, I'm seeing my mother. To say I'm nervous is a huge understatement.

I look at myself in the mirror smoothing down my floral high wasted skirt. I matched the skirt with a long sleeved, dark grey crop top. For some accessories I added a necklace.

"Cass you ready?", Derek asks peaking through the door.

I sigh, "Yea I guess."

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It takes us a hour to get to the airport. Her flight was supposed to land 20 minutes ago; spares me some time now that her flight is delayed.

Derek and I walk into the airport with his protectively over my shoulder. We stand at the gate where my mother is supposed to arrive. Soon people start coming out the gate.

Derek and I anxiously wait for my mom to come out. I start to fiddle with my fingers not paying attention to what is happening.

Derek suddenly lets go of my shoulders and runs forwards, I look up to see him embrace my mom.

I make eye contact with her. Just like that all my emotions come towards me from what I felt these last few months.

I start to shake uncontrollably when I see her close her eyes and embrace Derek tightly.

I run, I don't know why. I just keep running. I get outside and call a uber to come get me. Within 5 minutes I'm in the uber going home.

I feel my tears in my eyes but blink them back. I unconsciously whimper which opens the water gates. The Uber driver look at me sadly but doesn't question it.

As soon as I arrive home I run to the kitchen and grab a bottle of Dereks unopened Vodka.

The only thing that is going through my mind is to forget. I just want to forget everyone and everything.

I want to forget Luke, my mom, my dad, Derek, Cathrine, Jess, Josh, Sam and Shawn. I want to forget my past, I don't want to feel anything. I don't want this. I never did.

I walk to a nearby park and take a few swigs of the bottle. I don't even taste the liquid this is all too natural.

Flashback:

He's gone, he's gone. He left me, in this awful place. He left me, his best friend.

I sit in the school bathroom bawling my eyes out. Its been 3 months without him. In those 3 months my life has become considerably worse. Luke was always there to protect me from the bullies, if he wasn't there Derek was there. Now Luke is dead and Derek is god knows where doing god knows what.

I hear a the bathroom door open and see the last person in the world I wanted to see. Cathrine.