BADIDUNG

Czairil - "Wis"

A few days before the prom, I recieved a text from my old man that Ron finally had the guts to call off the engagement.

I knew this would happen but I'm still not prepared. I cried myself to sleep that night thinking those times we would meet to discuss the drastic change from friendship to fiance with each other and other past events we shared.

We were childhood friends since our parents are political partners and the first time we met when we were still kids was when our parents were having a political meeting.

Then the only conclusion I was able to come up with is to forget it all and act tough.

But I can't just act like nothing happened when he asked me for a dance at the prom. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng boses at pinagtabuyan, gaya ng ginawa niya sa feelings ko, sakin.

I tried to put him out of my mind. I'd lost best friends in the past, but I'd never felt like this, and we'd always remained friendly enough that if we saw each other, we'd at least say "hi." With Ron, everything was different. I found myself avoiding him if I saw him in public. If I saw anything that reminded me of him, my stomach would instantly knot up, and I'd try desperately not to cry. I never felt this devastated over a friendship ending.

To get over it, I started spending all my time with Mike, who joked that it seemed like ending my friendship with Ron was more like breaking up with someone I had been dating. I laughed at the thought. It seemed absurd at the time. I WAS just a fiancee for formality's sake. Nothing was even real. And I hadn't yet gone through a real breakup, but I wouldn't have wished what I was feeling on anyone.

Mike distracted me by introducing me to a group of guys he was friends with. We started hanging out with them all the time, and I started knowing Mike more despite the fact that 90 percent of his speech is about Ninian, who, according to him, was snatched by my "good" brother from him. Ironically his dad is a lawyer, also a political affiliate with my dad. It was like I couldn't totally get away from Ron, no matter how hard I tried.