Together

Chapter 21

Oooo huney!!!

We are almost there!!!

Guess who says that in his video ⬆️
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My heart tightens.

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Now, my body was racking with ugly sobs.

Somehow, I managed to get back to my bed.

This is also my first time crying myself to sleep.

I always wondered how people cried themselves to sleep.

Now I know, and it ain't pretty.

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I did not feel like going to school at all.

And my wish is granted.

Plus, my parents stayed home to.

Oh boy, how Jax still affects us after death.

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My parents forces me to go back to school after two days.

Two solid days and I still feel like my other half of my heart has been ripped apart.

Two days, where I just stared endlessly at my ceiling.

Now, I can actually map out my ceiling. I didn't even know at the corner of the ceiling was shaped like a duck.

My mind is in a totally different universe.

It's like aliens are calling for me:

Come, come my child. Sleep...

I so bad want to go to them but somewhere in my brain is telling me I still have a reason here.

My friends, family...

Why Jax?

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I picked my lazy butt out of the bed and slowly start preparing for school.

School.

It does not feel like the same anymore.

I walked out into the fresh, cold air.

It hit me like a tsunami.

Probably because I locked myself in my bedroom for two restless days.

In and out. In and out.

Breathe.

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By the time I got to school, first period started.

I don't think I care anymore.

I causally walked into history class.

And slid in my chair.

Looking at nothing.

Even my teacher didn't noticed I had entered.

Why am I even here?

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Lunch time came around.

I stir my food around with my fork.

I don't have an appetite anymore.

I wondered when was the last time I ate...

Did I ate breakfast this morning?