Riptide (Book 1)

My True love ?

It's been almost three months since I moved in with the guys. Jimin and I are together and I'm happy living with the others as well. The only problem is Jungkook. Things have been a little better than before. Now, he will tell me hi when he sees me, but it's not like it use to be. There still is something missing and every time we are alone there is awkward silence.

The guys and I are all hanging out in their pool today. Jungkook stayed inside saying he didn't feel good. I believed him too. He looked really pale and was always tired. Coughing a little here and there.

That night he went to bed early. I decided to go check on him. I managed to sneak away from Jimin and follow him up the stairs. He was already in his room by the time I got up the stairs. I opened his bedroom door and peaked in my head. He was laying in his bed with his bare back turned away from  the door. I close the door quietly and enter. I crawl into bed with him and put my arm around him. He groans as I try to pull him closer to me. I must of hurt his stomach. I remove my hand and place it on his forehead. He is really warm that he is staring to sweat. I rush out of his bed and into the bathroom to grab a wet rag. I grab a rag and wet it with cold water, wringing it out a little so it won't drip. I bring it to him and place it on his head. I go to remove my hand and he grabs my wrist. "Bri ?" "Yes, I'm right. I'm not going anywhere." He let's go of my wrist and I join him back in bed. He turns over on to his back and I lay my head on his chest. "I don't hate you, if that's what you think. I never did. I was just afraid. I didn't know what to think." I lift my head and look into his eyes. I have no words to say to him. All
I can do is stare into his eyes.

I can't take it anymore and press my lips to his. He may be sick but I don't care. He doesn't seem to either. He kisses me back while holding my neck to pull me closer. He lets go of my neck and pushes himself up, not breaking the kiss. Things start to heat up as he leaves my lips and plants kisses down my cheek to my collarbone. He tugs on the bottom of my shirt indicating for me to take it off. I raise my arms above my head and he pulls it off. He goes back to kissing me and sucking all over my neck. My fingers run through his hair, tugging it lightly as I want more. His hands go up my back and to my bra hook. "Don't push yourself. I don't want you to feel worse than you do already." Little moans escape my lips as he nibbles on my ear. His hands still on my back, playing with my bra strap. "If it will make you feel better, I won't go any further. You can trust me." I nod my head yes and he releases me. He lays back down and pulls me with him so my head is on his chest. I snuggle in closer and his arm wraps around my waist. "I missed you, Bri. I was so angry with myself when I wasn't talking to you." "It's okay. I'm not mad at you, but  things can't go back to the way they were right now. I can't hurt Jimin like that." My voice is almost in a whisper. "I understand." He sounds hurt and it makes me feel horrible. I close my eyes and think. I have to choose, but how ? This is the most difficult thing I ever had to do. I love them both and I hate to ruin anything we have. I let these thoughts ponder as I drift off to sleep.

I feel something poking my side as I start to wake up. I open my eyes and see Jimin standing there. I sit up and look at the clock on Jungkook's dresser. It's 2:30 in the morning. "What are you doing in here," I whisper so I don't wake up Jungkook. "We all feel asleep downstairs. I was waiting for you to come back, but you never did. So we went to our rooms and when I realized you weren't in yours I came to find you." "Well I'm okay. I was keeping Jungkook company." "In your bra ?" He points to my shirtless body and I scramble the bed to find my shirt. I find it and go to put it on but, he stops me. "Don't worry about it. I trust you enough to know you wouldn't go that far." "I'm sorry, Jimin. I'm so confused right now. I don't know what I want." I look down in disappointment. He puts a hand under my chin and lifts it so I can see him.

The faint glow from the window cast a shadow across his face. It makes his features stand out and his eyes look simply perfect. "Move over," he says getting in the bed next to me. "What are you doing ?" "I'm not asking you to choose between us. It's whatever you decide. This way right now you can have us both." I nod my head and turn my back to him. He takes the opportunity to spoon me and pull me close with his arm around me. I feel Jungkook turn over on his side to face me. He moves closer to me until I can feel his forehead touching mine. I take my arm and place it on his. As if they had the same idea, they both move closer almost squishing my body. I didn't care though. I had both of them close to me. It was so much easier to fall asleep like this. I close my eyes and let darkness take over me. I couldn't be any happier than this.
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