Katelyn and I talked for a while before I had to ask the most serious and painful question.
"Why did you do it?" I ask her in a small voice.
It takes a minute for her to answer, "It just hurts too much to live."
"Katelyn," was all I could get out for a while. My throat clogged and my eyes filled, again, with tears. It hurts to have someone you love so much want to die. It hurts so bad I can't find the right words to explain it. It's a type of pain you can't understand unless you've felt it.
"Don't cry," she tells me, about to cry herself.
"I wish..."
"You wish what?"
"I wish that, that you didn't feel this way. And that I could help you not feel this way. I wish that... I wish... I really wish I didn't have a reason to worry about you all the time." I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I'm in so much pain. I can't lose her. Ever. I don't want to worry about losing her.
"Callie, you don't have to worry about me. Every day, I fear the idea of death less than the day before. Death doesn't scare me. It actually relaxes me. The idea of Heaven and not hurting anymore. It's amazing. I'd be so much happier there than here. So why would you worry about me?"
"Because. Katelyn, I'm scared to lose you. I can't lose you. You might not know this, but I really do love you with all my heart. You're my best friend and I can't live without you." I stop talking and take a breath. My best friend, laying in a hospital bed, wanting and wishing to die. I could've lost her. I could lose her anyday and that scares me more than anything.
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Author's Note:
This is short, I know, but this chapter's for my best friend. She doesn't have Wattpad so she's not reading this, but every word Callie said to/about Katelyn in this chapter, is exactly how I feel about her. I love her so much and I really hope she knows how much I care about her! And guys, I saw TFIOS today. I cried sooo hard, if you haven't seen it yet, I suggest that you do! Another thing, I posted the first three parts of my other book last night. If you're interested you can go on my page and find it. It'd mean a lot to me. And if you read it, but don't like it, tell me and tell me what I can do to make it better! Thanks so much guys!
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