Battle Scars

chapter 32 - attempted

I sit breathless in the hospital waiting room. It's 1 in the morning. I'm tired, but not in the way where I want sleep, more in the way where I want to run away from my problems and go back to when I was little, laying on the couch with my mom watching Disney movies. My eyes sting from the tears and my throat aches from screaming and crying. I want Brandon but he's in the room across the hall from Katelyn's hospital room. They're both so weak, barely living.

My heart dropped and my insides collapsed when I was told what happened to her. After the mall yesterday we went to her house and talked. When we're alone, our conversations are usually extremely depressing, she's the only person I can talk to about my major problems. We talked and cried for about two hours. She kept saying things like "I'm done", "I can't do this anymore", "I want it to end", and "I don't wanna hurt anymore". But I didn't think she'd do something like this....

I feel so bad for her dad. Even though he never really seemed to care much about her, I can tell now that he does. He found her. I can't even imagine how hard it must be for him. Finding your daughter laying unconcious on her bedroom floor...

Hours and hours later, a nurse comes into the waiting room and calls Katelyn's dad over. I can't hear what they're saying, but from her dad's reaction, I don't want to hear. I'm sitting between Lena and Jude. Jude's head rests on my shoulder as he sleeps. I feel Lena put her hand over mine to comfort me.

"Can we see her?" I ask the nurse, hoping for a yes.

"Are you family?" she asks in a soothing voice.

"She's my bestfriend. She's like a sister to me. I need to see her. I need her to know I love her. I... Just can I see her?" my eyes start filling and my vision is bluring. There's a huge lump in my throat and I could barely get the words out.

The nurse looks at me sympathetically, "If it's okay with her father," she turns to Katelyn's dad, as if asking permission, "then of course you can see her."

"Go ahead, Callie. She needs you more than ever right now," her father smiles sadly at me. I get up slowly, trying not to wake up Jude, but he's a light sleeper. I kiss him on the top of the head and tell him I'll be back soon. I didn't know that soon was going to end up being as long as it did.

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Author's Note:

Sooo sorry it took so long for me to update... A LOT has been going on... But I ended school today so I have more free time to write now (because I have no life and stay at home all summer...) But anyway, I hope you guys understood what happened to Katelyn. I didn't want to actually say what she did, so I just sort of gave clues. And I'm sorry for the way this chapter ended... It really sucks so I'm sorry for that. One other thing, I'm starting a new story. I haven't published any of it yet, but I already have it all written on paper so it'll be up soon, if you guys are interested. It's a poem book, I have to warn you I'm not too good with rhyming, but they all have a message, it'd mean a lot if you guys read it! Thanks!