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BOOK TWO IS ALSO IN THIS BUT IT IS DISCONTINUED!
Alexis Cassidy Baxter. Commonly known as Alex. Football; comfort; determined.
Jayden Bryce. Commonly known as Jay. Soccer; "bad boy" (not really...
"The stars are my guide, And just because I love the stars Because they stayed with me Longer than many have, Then that doesn't Make me any less manly"
~ Me; impersonating Jayden ✨
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My mind whizzed back to the conversation my supposed dad and I had. It wasn't a blast, let me tell you that. But a few things were broken, here and there.
He wanted to make up for everything he has done. He hates himself for it. He wants my forgiveness. As if.
Moms leaving doesn't mean he takes his anger out on us. He loved, no loves, her. But that doesn't mean he lashes out on the only things he has left of her.
We love her too. We lost her too. We went through that same pain too. He doesn't understand that she was our mother. Our mother. The woman who birthed us into this universe. Poof. She's gone. Just like that.
Does he not think it would hurt us in an unimaginable way too? Is he really that selfish? That he is unable to think of anything else but?
I was closer to him. I'd expected him to be stronger. I really did. And to say I'm disappointed is a massive understatement.
He wants forgiveness. The fucking scum wants forgiveness. You think I would give it? To the man who abused me and attempted to abuse my little brother? The brother whom I love more than my own self?
I used to look up to this man. Respect him. With every atom within me. But he's as ducked up as I am. But he's still a coward. The guy I thought was the strongest man alive was a fucking coward.
How could I? How could I just... Forgive him? Forgive him for all the crap he did. He "regrets" it. I can't just forgive him like that. It's impossible for me to. Those words replay in my mind. "He's sorry".
But I don't take it. It's utter bullshit I tell you. This reasoning, it's fake. It's worthless. And let me tell you, I hate him. With every atom in me. I wholly hate him. Tell me this two years ago and I would've slapped you.
Oh he changed so damn much over time. Or maybe it was me who always sat him on a pedestal. Maybe it was always me. Since I automatically thought he was a good person.
He went from being my hero, to being my enemy.
The animosity I hold for him, the hatred... it's managed to scare the living daylights out of me.
I have never hated anyone. Not this much. Not even Rose.
I only hate two people; -Rose Ardilla Smirh -and My Father
He is nothing but a sperm donor to me now. He doesn't deserve the little boy he has for a kid. The one he doesn't even deserve anymore.
From the bottom of my empty heart, I mean it. It's the truth. I have an empty heart, but the truth of this can literally fill it. That's the hatred igniting within me.
