Stress relief

My buddy

So I had another chat with my buddy not that long ago and damn, its pretty awesome having a best friend like this. So we had like 3 phone calls because we got interrupted by needing to eat and stuff but once we finally got some chill time (it went from like 9-12 at night) it was pretty awesome. Legit though it's really cool to know someone this chill, like I ranted to him for like 10mins about how much it sucks to be a chick and the fact that they hAVE TAX ON PADS AND TAMPONS BECAUSE APPARENTLY THEY'RE 'LUXURY ITEMS' ( seriously dude what the fuck is up with that) and he dealt with that. It was awesome.

We talked for a few hours, some deep conversations and some really chill ones and honestly, I slept better that night than I had in months. The downside thought is that I'm sick. Great. I had to apologise every 5 seconds for coughing but he was chill about it.

It's kinda become a normal thing now that we text each other pretty much everyday. Whether it's just to talk when we're bored or if we have something to rant about. It feels kinda weird sometimes though because we see each other at school all the time, we're both in the same bands together (I play flute and trombone and he plays tenor saxophone and guitar), and when we're around other people we don't seem as close?

This might be me just being strange but it's like we are only super close and chill when no one else is around? Like, we caught the train together with another friend on Friday and she got picked up by her parents from the station but me and him had to catch the bus. We both had about 15 mins until our busses came and he could tell I was in a shitty mood and asked about it? Like, he actually wouldn't let it go when I didn't want to tell him. Even after his bus came he fuCKING TEXTED ME AND WAS LIKE 'OI IM NOT LETTING THIS GO' AND OMFG I DONT DESERVE THIS MAN.

And I'm also not as useful as I want to be because, yeah, we help each other out when we need it but he recently had a breakup. And he liked her a lot....and it's not like she didn't like him anymore she just thought she didn't have enough time to commit....WHAT DO I DO???

I've been trying to help as best as I can but like, I've never been in a relationship. Been asked out twice, and rejected them both. Plz help I don't know what to do I feel like a really shitty friend.

I'm gonna cry why am I unable to be useful?