Stress relief

What's that? Saying you'll do things and then you don't? Ha. Yeah

Remember aaaaaaaalll those updates ago (it was probably only like 4) that I said I was writing a book and stuff? And how I was doing two and I was gonna see how it turned out? And then I ended up not writing both of them?

Ha. Yeah so that happened. But to be fair y'all know depression is a bitch so it's always like 'oh. Let's do this thing, sounds like fun' then like 2 hours into it you're like 'alright guess I'll stop now' and then you never go back to it because you're never in the mood to and you keep telling yourself that it's fine you just did the thing yesterday. But then when it's been like 7 months you're like 'oh well. Too late to keep doing it now'. Or is that just procrastination?

Anyway, so off topic but basically I'm continuing a book I started writing a while ago but I never actually posted any chapters for it coz I told myself it would be less stress for quality and updates if I write like 95% of it first and then start releasing chapters. Because then that way I can finish all the writing and all that's left is minor editing from like comments and stuff. So I've continued to write one of them, before I'd only done like a prologue and half a chapter anyway but now I'm at chapter 4 in like 3 days soo...good? Idk.

The other book I was doing is kinda eh. Like the idea was cool but I felt like my quality wasn't where I wanted it to be. Like I don't really have experience in writing novels or anything, I read looooots and have a crap ton of books but when it comes to actually writing it basically just what I learned from my year 10 Literature class, which was mostly comprised of analysing poems and other written works like 'Of Mice and Men'. Anyway, I don't feel that my descriptions allow the depth il looking for in my writing that the authors I enjoy can get, and I know I can't expect myself to be at their level, especially when they've been writing for literal decades and I'm not even 17 yet but I'd still like to have some genuine quality to it.

Basically what I'm saying is that I do like my other story but it's gonna take some serious work to get it to a point I'm happy with, especially since I've written like 17 chapters for it, which means that there's gonna be a lot to edit. Anyway other story will probably also take a while but it's like a magic based story, I'm not planning on making it a typical 'magic school' story and I don't want it to be something that's exactly like all the other fantasy stories out there, even though those are the stories that tend to get more reads on a website/app like this one.

I'm hoping to put some real effort into it because I've heard that finding something to put passion into can really help with all the mental shit so I'm hoping this will help? That doesn't just go for me though, I think for all the people in similar situations, despite how many times you've heard this, find something to put time and effort into that makes you feel good. Like it doesn't have to be writing or drawing or playing sport like me. Your passion could be collecting stamps or photography or making jewellery or even fricken sex if that's what you're into (plz be safe about it tho). It doesn't have to be big things that take effort either. Maybe you'll be sitting in your room and you want to just lie there and imagine other world or something (I've done this so many times, it's great), but don't let yourself just sit there and think, don't let yourself spiral when you started off just fine because then you're letting yourself go. Don't become worse than you need to be :).

Wow I sound like some 40-year old motivational speaker. I swear to Zeus I'm only 16, wait no don't swear to Zeus, you swear to Zeus he'll drop lightning on yo ass and then start having sex with the nearest living (or possibly not living I mean this is Zeus here) thing around. Fans of Greek mythology, you get me.

Speaking of. You know how in Norse mythology Thor is the god of thunder? I've been thinking, what if waaaaaay back when the gods were thought up, some dude just had really bad digestion problems and his stomachs was just going insane all the time and some dude thought he was controlling thunder (coz the thunder isn't the lightning it's the sound before it my friends. They lied to us). Like what if this one dude with awesome hair and a beard was just walking around and everywhere people heard his indigestion and they went 'aaaahhhhh. It's Thor! He who controls thunder' and Thor is just like 'bro what I've been asking for someone to has beans to fix this shit but everyone just runs'.

I need mental help XD. Anyway. Longer update but the emotional shit made it a bit longer.

Ps. Story chapters will be way longer than these. Averaging at about 2000 words per chapter right now.

Peace
~Spirit
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