Amber Liu (o.s & s.s)

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Vernorexia Or Vernalagnia
(n.) ; a romantic mood inspired by spring

－Vernorexia comes from Latin, along with a Latinized form of Greek. Vern- comes from the Latin "Vernus", meaning Spring, or In the Spring. -Exia comes from the kind-of-Latin-kind-of-Greek root "Exien", which means "To be in a condition."

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"In the forecast, today the temperatures will reach a high of 74°, with only a few clouds expected. A good way to start off Spring, the next few days having temperatures that only rise! Mostly sun, with rain expected late Friday evening. Even if the pollen count is on the rise, that doesn't stop many from beginning to start gardening, hosting BBQ's, and kids playing outside." The news reporter from the tv screen. For the first day of spring, I was surprised at how well the weather was supposed to be, mostly because spring usually being rainy days. But, not today, which is a good sign.

My girlfriend, Amber, and I had planned to host a dinner later this evening. Inviting our close friends and a lot of our family members. This was something that would be cherished because Amber was usually busy with working, editing videos, and spending a lot of her time at a local gym here in Seoul. Of course, it was no special holiday, but we considered it one; and Amber decided to cook things like it was one. They would arrive around three in the afternoon, so snacks before dinner were also a must have, but that was the easy part. It was still early in the morning though, so there was almost no rush. Almost.

Amber had been acting weird lately though. She was almost shy around me, even if we've been together for three years now. I'm not exactly sure why, but I didn't question it because I didn't want to upset her today. She said that she needed to go to the store though, something about 'not having enough' to feed everyone that was expected to show.

My only job today was entertaining while Amber cooked, to make the house look presentable, and possibly watching over kids for other people here.

The only thing I could do now was clean around the house and possibly decorate some. After that, until the guests started arriving, I was free to do whatever I wished; and I only wanted to spend time with Amber as much as I was able, even if that meant bothering her while she cooked. She probably wouldn't appreciate it, because she doesn't like to be bothered while she's focused on something, but that almost never stopped me. She had gained a huge bit of patience with me because of this.

-3:00pm

"Y/N, can you put these on the table outside? I'll have to make more, but this will do for now." Amber said, tearing my attention from the book I was reading. "Sure, do you want them in any order?" I asked. "No, it doesn't matter. These are the ham, but the next will be the turkey sandwiches." I nodded and took the large plate, that was filled with small sandwiches, and made sure not to drop them on the way to the deck.

Most of Amber's family arrived first, her sister being the first one here. Amber was especially excited to see her, mostly because she hardly ever did. So, while Jackie messed around with Amber in the kitchen, I was told to entertain everyone else. I wasn't expecting many people from my family to show because of the distance it is to get here, and many of them saw the use of traveling just for a 'picnic' useless. Or, at least I thought that they did. But a lot of them showed too, making the atmosphere kind of weird. Amber was acting strange, everyone was a lot nicer and was watching me more often, and everything that I expected not to happen was happening. The feeling didn't really sit well with me, but I would have to swallow that for now.

When Amber was finally done cooking, around six in the evening, her and Jackie had set everything up outside while I watched over some of me and Amber's nieces and nephews inside. Since the adults were already outside, it was more less my responsibility to get them outside with the rest of the family to eat. But when coming outside, everyone's eyes were on me. The kids ran by my side and to their parents, which was the only thing saving me from the stares on me. My eyes met with Amber's, and she smiled at me, motioning for me to come and sit by her.

"So Amber, how has work been for you?" Her mother asked her, eyeing her fingers since they were tapping the hard wood. She stopped, of course. "It's been okay. Although, as a group, nothing has really been released lately. But we all still keep in touch with one another." She smiled. "But Luna and I are working on a duet song, and we're directing it ourselves." "It amazes me how well you are at everything, Amber. You and your sister both." Her mom said, smiling deeply. "Y/N, how has work been for you?" "It has been okay, I assume. I haven't really gotten many interesting projects to work on, but I plan to do somethings around here again. Make things a bit more modernized, maybe change the wall colors or something." I said, smiling lightly.

When everyone was finished, attention seemed to be on me again. Amber had excused herself to go and turn on the small decor lights that were wrapped around the deck, for when the sun went down and it was nice enough to sit outside. The screen door swung open, the attention back on Amber. Her eyes met with mine, and she smiled deeply. I returned the smile, but I was still very confused as to what was happening, and why everyone else around me knew about it. The feeling was definitely starting to get overwhelming, but the time to be upset was not when you had guests over, especially not if some are family.

She walked towards me, anxiousness obvious in her steps. She stopped in front of me, reaching her hand out for me to take. She pulled me to stand with her, her smile deepening. She tucked a piece of hair behind my ear, resting her palm in the crook of my neck, rubbing small circles.

"So, Y/N, I definitely planned for this to be so much more romantic and in a better setting." She said, moving her hand to her pocket, "but I felt like this was a perfect time to do this. I remember the first day I met you. I was walking out of the studio and I was super irritated because I couldn't get all of the moves down for a video. You were walking alone, and your face was focused on the ground the entire time. I don't know what it was, but I just knew that I had to talk to you. I had to get to know you. And even on our first date, I knew that you were some I was supposed to meet. I remember during a break at practice with other members in my group, when I had a smile painted on my face the entire time. I remember telling them that I met her, the girl that I dream of and the girl that I want to draw. The girl that I want to wake up and go to sleep to every night. The girl that I can depend on, and the girl that can depend on me. And most importantly, the girl that I wish to spend the rest of my life with." At this point, she was on one knee, pulling a box from her pocket. "So, Y/N, I have to ask," she paused, opening the box, "Will you marry me?"

As you could assume, I was already crying. "Yes, Amber, of course." I said, falling on my knees in front of her. Our family around us clapped, and some were tearing up as well.

-later that night

"Amber, I have a question." I said, my attention still on the tv screen. "Yes baby?" She said, the vibration of her reply against me. "Is this why you've been acting so off?" I said, examining the ring the was now placed on my left hand. She laughed slightly. "You caught me." I smiled and moved so I was laying on top of her, my elbows resting on her shoulders.

"Amber Liu, I love you." I said. She smiled at me, and rolled her eyes. "If you did, you would let me watch my movie." She said. I pretend to be hurt, and tried to move, but her arms wrapped around my waist, my face now resting in her neck.

"I love you more." She said.

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lol hi this was horrid

tbh idk

but I love y'all lots and my ideas just keep getting worse and worse ahahahahahaha

-with love, sav xx