Kuroko no Basket x Reader

Midorima Shintaro

MIDORIMA X DECEASED READER:
Until the End of Time (Angst)
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Midorima sits down at his desk and twirls the blue pen in his hand. He presses the tip of the pen to the page and starts writing.

Y/N,
April 12th.
School is boring besides basketball. Takao insists on annoying me all the time. If you were still here you probably would have punched him in the face by now. Some days he doesn't show up at school, though. I get it. I want to take days off a lot, too but mom always tells me I should go. My little sister asks where you are all the time. We both miss you. My mother made my favourite dish for dinner today, and it somehow managed to put a small smile on my face. Nothing in comparison to the smile you used to create, though. Therapy was boring... I tried to talk about you but my chest started hurting. I hope tomorrow is better. I'm trying, Y/N. I'm trying so hard.

Love from Shintaro

He shoves the note into his drawer and yawns before stretching. With a sigh he makes his way to the bathroom to shower.

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Midorima stomps into his room and slams the door shut behind him. He stalks over to his desk and aggressively rips a page out of his book and snatches a pen from the drawer.

Y/N,
April 13th
I fainted during basketball practice today. My head hit the floor and I completely blacked out. I got taken to the nurse's office and was instructed by coach to go home. I didn't want to. Basketball is one of my very few escapes and I must play. Who the hell does he think he is? I shouldn't have left. I should have just ignored him and kept playing. I was late to therapy because mom forced me to go to the doctors. It wasn't worth it. He simply said I was stressed and needed to eat more. I have a game coming up... coach better let me play.

Love Shintaro

The writing is scribbled and messy, with holes in the paper from him pressing too hard out of anger.

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Midorima sits at his desk.

Y/N,
April 14th
Today was one of the better days. Takao showed up to school and we played basketball during lunch break. Halfway through, he said he needed to go to the bathroom but I could see the tears brimming in his eyes. He came back with a smile and we continued. I know Takao is trying his best for me, and I greatly appreciate it. We walked home together and talked about the team we're versing next week. I wish you could come watch me play one last game.

Love Shintaro

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Midorima walks to his desk. His eyes are lifeless.

Y/N,
April 15th
Nothing happened today. I miss you. Every fibre of my being feels the loss of you, and it is breaking me more and more every day. Your parents invited me over... I'd like to go to your house for dinner but I know that it would be too hard for me. Your scent would be everywhere. Pictures of you would be inescapable. Clumps of your hair are probably still lying around the house. The door to your room would be closed with nobody inside. Your seat at the dinner table would be empty. My heart would still be empty. I want to be with you again.

Shintaro

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Sluggishly, Midorima enters his bedroom. His eyes are half open as he drops his school bag aside and sits at his desk before drawing a pen from the holder.

Y/N,

I'm tired. I'm so tired. If you were here, you would insist on giving me a massage and I would pretend that I didn't want one, but would be dying for it. I'm tired. Everything seemed so much more exhausting than usual today.

Shintaro

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Y/N,

I hate it here without you.

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Y/N,

Many people asked me if I was okay today. I didn't care for any of them because not one of them was you.

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I want to be with you again.

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Y/N,
April 20th
I miss you so much. I love you so much. I never thought the first time I would bring my love for you into fruition would be through pen on a piece of paper, but I have no choice. You're gone. You left before I got the chance to tell you that my love for you far outnumbers the amount of stars in the sky, far outweighs planet earth, is far warmer than the hottest day... and hurts far more than the pain you left me with. I am in so much pain that I can no longer take it. Basketball no longer fills a small portion of the hole in my heart, it cannot sustain any form of happiness anymore. It now reminds me of your sweet smile that I once saw amongst the crowd of irrelevant people. I still search for that smile only to be reminded that you are no longer here with me. My body aches at the thought of your touch that was never able to grow into more than friendly interaction. I truly wish I told you before it happened. Before you were taken away from me. I wish I told you that you were my whole world, and I wanted nothing more than for you to be mine in every way possible. Coming to terms with the fact that you are gone isn't possible, which is why I choose to join you instead. I choose to be with you for the rest of time wherever you are. It doesn't matter the place, as long as you are there.

Thank you for showing me what love is.

As a thank you, I will love you until the end of time.

Love from Shintaro

A/N:

WHAT A WAY TO BRING THIS BOOK BACK.

hi my sweet sweet kuroko no basuke lovers. thank you for years of following this book and for every comment asking me to continue writing. i've missed each and every one of you more than words !

i announced my second pregnancy in this book.

so, i am here again today to do the same thing once more.

i'm pregnant with my third, and probably final, child !

as always, my family is blessed to be graced with the presence of one more angel. with every pregnancy i find out about, my heart is filled with an indescribable amount of love and overwhelming joy.

thank you all for joining me on the journey of my second baby, and i hope that you would enjoy doing the same for my third.

happy new year, my loves.

i hope you enjoyed this angsty midorima one shot. i hope to deliver more stories this year, but with another child comes another bucketload of responsibilities.

thank you, again for your patience.

all of my love, always.
lavender
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