Shortly after I cleaned myself up i grabbed another beer and decided to walk home. But I never went home. I went to the park. Thats where I am writing you. I know it's weird that I carry this in my bag but hey who cares. So I'm just going to spill my thoughts out. Here it goes. So I offically fucking hate this craptastic town. Don't say get time to know the town, Well news flash I've lived here for all my life. But what I hate the most is the people here. I hate being judged. All that people here see me is a trouble maker. Don't get me wrong I am a trouble maker but I only get in trouble and joke around becuase I hate seeing people sad and I get in trouble for two reasons. One being seeing if my parents notice which they don't and the second being to live in the moment and not scared, because I used to be that scared girl afraid to do anything. You can say that I have changed through the years because it is true. I am not fake I just changed how I look at life.
Isn't it funny how I'm just spilling out my thoughts when the person reading this probably doesn't even know me. I blame the alcohol. Well enough of me. It's story time with Hannah Baker. This going to be the back story of Spencer and Alex.
Spencer hates her dad to pieces while on the other hand Alex doesn't. Spencer hates him for all sorts of reasons. He abuses her when Alex isn't around. Spencer can't yell at her dad whenever she wants because Alex would get offended. Alex doesn't know about her dad hitting Spencer when she came home drunk. Alex and Spencer can't stand there step mom. She abuses both of them. Their dad works late so when ever he isn't there she decides to abuse them no matter what they do. There older brother sees it most of the time but he doesn't do anything all he does is watch while his two little sister are crying and getting hurt by there step mom. It's been hard on them ever since their mom was killed in a break in at her work. Alex is very protective about Spencer and Spencer is very protective about Alex. They both are very protective over each other and me. They know that I hate being popular just because of them and they understand.
Well end of story time.
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Matt decided to come up to me while I was sitting at the park.
Matt: Alex and Spencer are wondering where you are
Me: Tell them I got a ride
Matt: But you clearly didn't
Me: Can you leave me alone
I texted Spencer saying I got a ride.
Matt: I didn't come here to harrass you.. I came to see how you were
Me: Why would you do that
Matt: I heard you puked all over Carter
Me: I aploigized and i warned him he didn't listen
Matt: He's not mad
Me: Okay then why are you here
Matt: Can a friend just talk to a friend
Me: I don't like you
Matt: I know but how have you been doing
Me: Like how am doing at my house
Matt: sure
Me: I hate everything at my house.... I'm actually suppose to be at my house grounded because I told my parents they should just get a divorce
Matt: That bad
Me: I can't even sleep at my house anymore
Matt: I'm sorry
Me: Why the hell am I telling you this it's not like you care.
Matt: I don't know why you hate me but I do have a heart underneath these tattoos
Me: I'm sorry I'm not used to people actually caring
Matt: I understand
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I woke up in my barn. I really don't remember anything that happened last night but I'm guess we crashed in my barn. I was me Spencer, Alex, Matt, and Carter. I was in some deep shit if I didn't get over this hangover fast enough.
Spencer: How are you doing
Me: Fine why?
Alex: You asked us why sponge bob was a yellow sponge
Spencer: Before that you were broken down crying and saying how you are a badperson and that you caused this fight between your parents
Me: I remember breaking down crying but thats it
Carter: You also puked on me
Me: well sorry about that
Carter: It's okay
Alex: How are you going to deal with your parents
Me: I'm not going to
Matt: Good luck with that
Alex: Why don't you know how to keep your damn mouth shut... Unlike you people actually have feelings
I could tell he felt hurt.
Me: Alex that was harsh and he does have feelings
I gave Matt a genuine smile.
Alex: When did you start siding with the devil
Me: Please I am the devil
Alex: ok fine when did you start siding with that thing
Me: he helped me last night
Alex: I see...
Me: I gotta sneak back to my room so talk to you later
I climbed up the balcony to my room and snuck into my room and went back to bed.
I was waken up an hour later by my parents fighting. Big suprise there. These are the good ole Sunday mornings. You know normal teenagers wake up and watch cartoons while I wake up to fucking Family Feud and I'm not talking about the stupid game either.
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A/N
Nina Dobrev plays Spencer
Victoria Justice plays Alex
