Well Spencer is both mad at me and Matt. Oh well she will get over it. And I know what your thinking, you think I'm dating Matt. Well guess what I'm not. I know you are thinking why not hes a nice guy. But I can't date anyone yet. I can barely keep a relationship with my mom so what makes me think I can keep a relationship with other people. I don't know why I can't keep a relationship or maybe I do I don't know right now. I am going to a party tonight. I probably should stay home to see if my mom will come home. But I already know she won't so whats the point of staying home. I'm actaully getting ready for the party right now. And since I actually have a little extra time I will tell you what I'm wearing. I'm wearing black ripped skinny jeans with a mint green flowy croped top with my black vans. I had my hair natural. which was kinda wavy.
I got in my car and headed to the party. I was the last to arrive as I normally am.When I got to the party. The music was blasting. I danced my way to the drinks. I grabbed myself a beer. I had my drink in my hand and I headed to where everyone was dancing at. I was actually having fun. Every once in a while I took a drink of beer. Then when I was going to take another sip I realizes I was out. I threw my beer away and grabbed another. Then I headed back to where I was dancing. I stopped dancing for awhile and just stoodd offto the side. I had my foot up against the wall.
This guy came up to me he ried grinding on me. I asked him nicely to leave but that didn't work. I was about to punchhim when this guy came up to me.
Guy: Why don't you leave him alone.
The guy left.
Guy: I'm Luke Collins
Me: Ah the bad boy.. Well I'm..
Luke: I know who you are
Me: Well everybody knows me I'm the girl who broke Faye's nose
Luke: She deserved it
Me: At least someone agrees with me
Luke: The girl thinks shes all bad but shes not
Me: You are like the only guy that thinks that
Luke: Well I'm also the only guy that doesn't think you are a bitch
Me: I could careless what ohter people think.
Luke: Really you don't care what people think?
Me: Nope.. I mean its annoying what they say but it doesn't bother me
Luke: You know you are not like most girls
Me: I'm not and I like it like that
Luke: I like it like that too
Me: So what brings you to talk to me
Luke: I saw the guy on you and that you were about to punch him so I stepped in.
I saw that Matt was here and he saw that I was with Luke. Matt started to walk over here. I put my arms around Luke. Little did anyone know I had the biggest crush on Luke for awhile now.
Luke: Getting a little friendly there aren't you
Me: Don't get any ideas
Luke: Don't pretend you don't have a crush on me. I know you do everyone does.
And there goes me liking him.
I put my arms down.
Me: I actually need some air.
I walked passes him. I gave a Matt a look saying" Don't you dare follow me or talk to me" I went outside the back. I stood outside for a few minutes then I saw a picnic table and sat on it. I felt my phone vibrate. I pulled it out and it was a text from my dad and my mom.
Dad: We need to talk
Mom: Won't be back for the next week. I'm working things out with your father
In that moment I snapped back to reality and remembered every single problem I had. I buried my hands in my face. Then Luke sat next to me.
Luke: Did I do anything wrong
Me: No I'm fine
Luke: What's going on
Me: I can't believe this is happening
Luke: What's going on
Me: My parents are getting back together
Luke: Isn't that suppose to be good
Me: You don't understand how my dad is
Luke: Would you mind telling me
Me: Okay so do you remember me coming to school with a hoodie on. I had my hood on covering my face.
Luke: yeah
Me: Well my dad hit me really bad in the face. He hurts my mom. And my mom is drunk and high off her mind trying to get back together with my dad.
Luke: I know how that is trust. If you need someone to escape to I'm here
Me: You have to say that because everyone says that
Luke: I;m such a douche and mean to people because my moms always high as fuck and my dad beats me. I hate being a douche all the time I hate it
Me: I'm sorry I really am I had no idea. And you were right when we were in the party that I liked you
Luke: I was joking but you really like me
Me: Yeah i do
We sat out here talking until the party was over. I was really drunk. Matt tried taking me home but I refused. Luke made me stay over because of how drunk I was. After people left I helped clean up the house for Luke. We both sat on the couch I was out before I knew it.
When I woke up the next morning. Luke was basically holding on to me. I grabbed my bag and sneaked out of the house. I texted Luke thanks for letting me crash. When I got to my house the door was wide open. I walked in yelling "Hello" Then my mom and dad came down stairs. They were mad.
I had no clue what they were mad at but I knew yelling was involved. I did not want them back together.
Mom: We are back together and we know that you have a drinking problem.
Me: Well that took a genius to figure out.
Dad: We are serious we are taking your alcohol away
Me: You don't care what I think about living in the same house as him mom do you
Mom: Honey hes different now
Me: Im done with this
Now that expalins why I'm sitting on a curb by myself. It sucks having no control at home. I don't even know what to do anymore. My parents obviously don't care about my thoughts. Shes just going to get hurt. I'm not going to stop it this time. Maybe I will act like the perfect daughter they never had because they obviously don't want me as their daughter. I wouldn't want me as my own daughter thats how messed up I am. So thank you world for being so god damn fucked up.
