Me: never mind it was a mistake coming here
Matt: no Hannah what wrong
Me: never mind it was a mistake anyways
Matt: Hannah come in
I came in and sat on his couch.
Matt: what's going on
Me: my whole life is a lie
Matt: that's not true
Me: my brother was forced to leave because my mother get high and he caught her
Matt: it's okay everything will be okay
Me: god I hate this
Matt: it will be okay
Me: okay
I calmed my crying down.
Matt: can I ask you a question
Me: Matt it was a mistake to even come here I have to get put of here
Matt: ok but I will see you tomorrow again right?
Me: yeah yeah
I went back to my house and my mom was gone. So I just curled in a ball on the couch and cried myself to sleep. Then somebody rang my doorbell. It was my dad.
Me: what do you want
Dad: can you please let me back in your life I can so better
Me: no now leave
Then he left.
When he left I grabbed my notebook where I write. I wrote this saying it goes like this.
" People change even the person that you thought you knew the most changes and even though it hurts to see them go you have to move on for the memories is all you have and thing might never be the same"
Then I went back to sleep.
The next morning I woke up and got ready for school. My mom never came back that night it was typical. I got ready and headed to school.
I didn't feel like going to school but I went to school. I skipped most of my classes. I just sat in the hallway and wrote. Then I guess Carter found out is was skipping. Damn him.
Carter: what's been going on
Me: can you just leave me alone
Carter: I'm not leaving I'm your friend to
Me: no one knows what's going on I barely know what's going on
Carter: you can still tell me what's going on I can try to help
Me: why do you even care why does anyone care
Carter: I don't know if you know but nobody what's you to hurt your self.
Me: are you serious
Carter: I'm trying to help
Me: get away from me now
I grabbed my stuff and walked to my locker. I grabbed my stuff. I started to cry. The bell rang so everyone was switching classes. I didn't want anyone to see me crying. I walked down the hall and towards the door. When I was halfway through the door someone called my name.
Matt: Hannah
Me: leave me alone
Matt: We are just trying to help
Me: I can't believe you out of all people just leave me alone I'm done
Then I stormed out of the school. I headed to my empty field.
I can't believe that they think that. I called Spencer.
Spencer: hello?
Me: do you think I would kill myself
Spencer: well...
Me: I can't believe this
Spencer: the way have you been acting it just seems
Me: bye spencer
I hung up.
I can't believe this. I hate my life right now and I have thought about it but I wont do it. I hate how I can't even talk to anyone about my problems. I mean I can't even go talk to spencer or Alex. Matt I can't talk to him as much as he wants to help I can't.
Then to my surprise Matt showed up.
Matt: Hannah I didn't mean what you thought Carter took it the wrong way
Me: if I come to you I'm hurt or I need someone to talk to I don't want you to tell anyone
Matt: ok I'm sorry can I ask you something
Me: what
Matt: I like you and I've liked you for awhile
Me: okay
Matt: I was wondering if you would go out with me
Me: I can't...
Then he leaned in to kiss me. Spencer was behind us as this happened.
I seriously have the worst timing ever.
