Really?!

Chapter 2 Part 2

Beyoncé's POV

I know, I know, I know nut I don't have an excuse. At the time we were releasing our first album when I got pregnant and I didn't want her to grow up in the spotlight so I left her with a family member.

I know that's a punk move but it was best at the time. I kept Chanel up until she was five years old and started kindergarten. I felt she needed a stable environment and a routine. By the time she was seven I tried to come back and get her but my aunt thought I would be messing up her life and at the time I wanted the best for her. I sent letters letting her know I missed her and how I was going to get here but every time I tried my aunt would come up with some excuse.

She threaten me on numerous occasions to go to the media about this situation if I came to get her. I was so young and dumb always thinking what everyone thought of me and my brand. I felt like a coward and after I had Blue I felt worse.

I was here taking care of one child and I couldn't even see the other. I felt like a disgrace. When my mom told me Chanel was at the door I was beyond shocked. Did my aunt allow her to come? How did she get here? And who was the boy with her?

I led her into the room in the back to talk without everyone around. We sat on the bed and we just kind of looked at each other. I still can't believe she's here. She is so beautiful.

"Does your aunt know you're here?" I asked.

"No, I told her I was going with a friend to Ocean City." she said.

"You shouldn't have done that." I said.

"Why? You didn't want to see me that bad!" she yelled.

"No, I did want to see you." I said "Did you get my letters?"

"Yeah and none of them said anything about you wanting to see me." she said.

What, that doesn't sound right at all.

"In all the letters I wrote that I wanted to see you and how much I missed and loved you." I said. "I just sent the last one out last week. I know you don't respond to them anymore I just figured-"

She gave me an odd look.

"In all the letters I got it didn't say anything like that and I haven't gotten a letter in years." she said. "And I couldn't understand why you were treating me like I wasn't your daughter."

"Hold on, what did the letters say?" I asked.

"Nothing about you caring or coming to get me." she said.

I was so heated at the moment. Somebody was messing with the mail and I know exactly who did it. That damn aunt of mine.

My baby thought I didn't give a damn about her. I told her to come with me. We went in my room and I gave her all the letters I had sent to her. I always kept copies. She sat and started to read them. As she was reading she was tearing up. I swear I already felt like a bad mom, now I feel awful.

"Did you mean everything you wrote?" she asked me after an hour.

"Yeah, but your aunt threatened me and at the time I was young and dumb and decided to keep you a secret. I never intended on it being this long but I felt like a terrible mother and when I would send letters and you didn't respond." I said.

"Wait!" she said. "I responded to every letter I got up until you stopped writing, well I thought you stopped writing."

"I never got them." I said.

"But I would give them to" she trailed off into her mind I guess putting the pieces together. "I can't believe she would do something like that. After all the times I asked about you and if I could have your number she would never give it to me."

"I know and I'm sorry this has happened. I never meant to hurt you." I said tearing up.

She sat in silence for awhile as I tried to dry her tears.

"If you really mean what you say. I forgive you." She said after a while. I was shocked. I didn't know what to say. "I came up her to cuss you out to be honest."

"I can't even be mad at that."

"Well yeah, I mean you're not world's number one mom, but I hope you're doing well with Blue. I want her to have what I didn't." she said.

I felt the knife twist a bit with that but I deserve it.

"From this day forward I don't want you to think that I or this family disowned you. I've loved you since you were born and I don't want you to think otherwise." I said. "I've made stupid, stupid decisions but none of them was having you and I want you to remember that."

She sat for a minuet before she nodded.

"I'm not gonna lie but this is gonna be hard and it's gonna take some time." she said. "Does your husband even know that I exist?"

"No, but I will tell him today." I said.

That's something else I've been hiding. I pray to God I don't lose my marriage over this.

"Okay, so what now?" Chanel asked.

"Do you want to meet your little sister?" I asked.

"Yeah." she said smiling.

I led her towards the nursery and we walked in. She went towards the crib and watched Blue sleep.

"Wow, she's beautiful." she said. "She looks like you."

"Yeah, I guess." I said.

As we left the room Chanel stopped me and asked.

"Who's my father?"

I knew she was gonna ask that sooner or later. I haven't told her father that he has a child. I'm not sure if we're ready for that but I guess keeping secrets is what got me in this situation now so now I have be honest and tell them.