Amarelo Blood

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*Sean*

"Sean, where are we going?" Clara asked. I could barely hear her, I felt like I was fading. I would hear her, and then not hear anything. I would see her, I would see trees and then I would see only darkness.

I wasn't controlling my body, and though it took a lot for a prodigy Alpha to admit, but I was scared. I couldn't do anything, I didn't want to hurt her but I couldn't help myself, let alone help her.

"Shut up, would you?" I heard myself hiss at her. I heard her squirm as I grabbed her arm roughly.

I was beginning to panic. I had to regain control of my body and fast. I couldn't hurt her. Not Clara. But I didn't know how to regain control.

I was in the dark again, I couldn't see anything and neither could I hear a thing.

My eyes flashed and through a blur I could see Clara, I heard her sob, I wanted to comfort her but all I did was hiss at her again telling her to shut up as I ran the knife in my hand along her temple.

I heard myself wish her a goodnight before I brought the knife in the air. No. Before the knife could stab into her chest my hand flung sideways, but it wasn't fast enough to prevent my stabbing her in her arm causing her to scream in agony.

I felt like I was drowning in my anger and fear, I couldn't even take enough control of my body to stop myself from stabbing her.

"Oops, I missed." I chuckled as she sobbed. I wanted to stab myself. I hurt her, something I never thought that I would do, something I never even thought about doing.

"Sean!" Jason's voice had my head turning to face him, I saw Matt, Eric and Andre around him.

"Stop," Eric said, "You can't hurt her." He looked torn.

"You'll have your turn," I replied, but it wasn't me. I wanted to listen to him, I wanted to stop but I couldn't.

Clara let out a cry as I pulled the knife from her arm roughly.

"Sean, you can't. This isn't you. I know you hear me. Look at who you're hurting, Sean. Look at Clara, YOU would never do this." Matt said.

I chuckled. "Idiots," I said turning back to Clara.

"Sean, please. Please." I froze hearing Izabella, she sounded like she was going to cry, suddenly images flashed through my mind. She begged me. I bit her. She cried. I remembered every second of it.

I looked down at Clara who was still crying.

"Clara -!" I heard Joe yell frantically. I turned to see Ian holding Joe back, the look on Joe's face made fear strike through me.

"Sean, this isn't you. You wouldn't hurt her. Please, listen. Let her go." Andrew said shaking his head slightly.

My heart was pounding. I felt like I was burning on the inside. Fighting to control my body.

"D-Daddy - h-help!" I heard Clara cry.

"Clara -! Let her go! Get away from her!" Joe yelled. "Please, Sean, don't -" he was begging but I couldn't listen. I just couldn't. I didn't know how to.

'If you fight hard enough it will work' I heard Ian in my head, I couldn't reply. I had blocked him out and prevented myself from linking to anyone.

I lifted the knife and brought it down swiftly but Izabella's scream had my hand jerking back. I turned to look at her.

She was covering her mouth shaking frantically as Jason held her arms from behind her, the tears on her face alone were enough to make me livid. I wasn't supposed to be the one making her cry, and yet it was constantly me. I wouldn't take it anymore. I wasn't going to hurt Clara or Izabella anymore.