Secrets

Chapter 17

I hate that I'm so confused right now. I know I need to talk to Louis about everything. I'm sure he won't be upset about anything. I know he knew something was bothering before we came back to his house. I wonder when he's going to bring it up. I feel like I've been over thinking everything that's been going on. I don't need to keep doing this to myself. My thoughts were interrupted my Louis walking by with the food, "Do you want to eat in here or the kitchen?"

"The kitchen. It keeps us from cleaning up in here."

He smiled, walking towards the kitchen. I followed him in there and I saw that he already set the food down on the table. I walked over, sitting down next to him. He smiled as handed me some food before grabbing his. He reached over, placing his hand on my leg while we ate. We both didn't really say anything as we ate. He finished before I did, moving closer to me. I felt him move some of my hair, gently kissing my cheek. I felt him move his hand from my leg, grabbing my hand, lacing our fingers. I can't help but smile. I felt my heart flutter from how he's being. I feel like he wants to ask me something. He'll probably ask when he's ready. I finished eating before getting up. I cleaned up our trash. When I was done I noticed that he was looking at me still. I walked over by him when I felt him grab hand. He mumbled, "Come here, beautiful."

I can't help but smile as he pulled me over closer to him. He motioned for me to sit on his lap. I did as he wrapped his arms around me. I leaned into him, leaning my head on his shoulder. He asked, "What's wrong?"

"What do you mean?"

He sighed, "I know there's something wrong. I could tell during class by the way you were acting. That's why I was texting you."

"There is something bothering me."

"Does it have something to do with Niall?"

I nodded, "How did you know?"

"I guessed. He didn't even look at you before he walked out of class. What's going on?"

"I'm not even sure. That's what's bothering me."

 He looked a little confused, "Do you want to talk to him?"

"Yes. I'm not sure if he wants to."

"Do you want to talk to him tomorrow?"

I nodded, "I need to try to at least."

"I'll drive you there if you want me to."

"Thank you."

"It's no problem. You don't have to thank me."

He kissed my cheek then asked, "Is that part of the reason you started pulling my shirt up earlier?"

"Sort of. I mean when I'm around you I forget about things."

I noticed him smile, "I don't want to do anything with you unless you think you're completely ready."

"I feel like I'm ready."

"I want you to deal with whatever is going on with Niall before you decide. I don't want you to do anything just to forgot about other things."

I know he's right. I've pretty much offered to do things with him and he doesn't want to. Well at least it seems like he doesn't. I felt him kiss my cheek, "What's wrong now, love?"

"It seems like you don't want to do anything."

He chuckled, "Of course I want to. I mean what guy doesn't? I just don't want to push you into anything and I want you to be completely sure about things when we do."

I smiled. He's so sweet. I pecked his lips when I noticed him smile, "So do you have anything else to ask about?"

I mean I have been feeling like we're moving fast. I know I've brought this up to him before. I don't want to mess up things by bringing it up again. I felt him kiss my cheek then over to the corner of my mouth. He mumbled, "I know you're thinking about something else, beautiful."