Secrets

Chapter 59

Louis' POV

I'm actually happy that I told Allison those things last. It felt nice to be open with her about it all. I've never even told anyone. Like people know the things that I had to do with Jace weren't good but they never exactly knew. She was calm when I told her. I was afraid she would be upset with me and maybe want to leave. I fear that. That one day I might do or say something wrong and she'll leave. I love her so much. I don't want her to leave me. I hate the thought of it. She means so much to me. I've never had the feeling I have with someone that I have with her. Everything is so different. It's like I can't get enough of her. When she's happy, I'm happy.

I woke up and I felt Allison in my arms. I can't help but smile. I love the feeling of waking up with her in my arms. I don't want to wake up any other way now. I looked down at her and noticed that she was still sleeping. She looks so peaceful. She's just as beautiful when she's asleep as she is when she's awake. I don't want to wake her up. She deserves some sleep. I mean we did talk about so much yesterday. I mean I told her what I want. I know she feels like she's too young but she hasn't' told me exactly how she feels about it. I know our relationship has moved a little fast but I guess that just how we are. I mean I'm in love with her. I've never loved someone as much as I love her. I kissed the top of her head, grabbing the remote for the TV. I turned it on, turning the volume down so I don't wake her up. It's nice being here like this. I know if Jace or any of the other guys find out I'm with her, I'm going to be stressed. I'm not even exactly sure what they would do but I know what they used to do. I think that's the part that worries me.

After about 20 minutes I felt her move in my arms. I know she's awake now. She moved, looking up at me. I can't help but smile, "Good morning beautiful.''

She smiled back, "Good morning."

I love her smile. If it's even possible she looks more beautiful when she smiles. I moved my hand, moving some of her hair away from her face. I wrapped my arm back around her as I felt her move a little closer to me. I felt her move as she started to trace my tattoos with her finger tips. I understand why she says it's relaxing when I do that to her back. She mumbled, "How long have you been awake?"

"About 30 minutes."

"You could have woke me up."

"I know, I would rather let you sleep though."

I noticed her smile, "I love you."

I can't help but smile, "I love you, baby."

She kept tracing my tattoos with her finger tips. It's relaxing when she does this. It really makes me want to go get another tattoo with her name. I know she doesn't want me to but I want to. Maybe I can go get it next weekend. I might be able to talk her into liking the idea of it. I smiled a little bit, "Babe?"

She smiled, "Yes?"

"How would you feel if I got your name tattooed with these tattoos?"

"I think it's a bit crazy."

"Well you said you like my tattoos and you're tracing them right now. I want one for you."

"What if something happens to us?"

"I'm not going to let anything happen to us. I can't be without you, baby."

I noticed her smile, "Well you know what I think about it. It's not really my choice. It's yours."

I can't help but smile. I knew she would probably give in at some point. I kissed the top of her head. I moved one of my hands down to the bottom of my shirt that she's wearing. I pulled it up so her back was showing. I started moving my finger tips up and down her back like I did last night. She moved closer to me, "It's cold."