Secrets

Chapter 89

Louis' POV 

I'm happy that I finally picked up her Christmas present today. I want to give it to her already. Honestly the closer we get to Christmas the more nervous I get. I don't want her to notice. I'm scared of what she might. I think I know the answer but there's a small chance that it's not going to go the way I want it to. I don't want to think of the right now. I just want to spend the day with her and focus on her being happy right now. I know she is and it makes me happy. My life is just so focused on her. I know some people don't like that but I don't care. She's everything to me. I don't care what other people think about that. It just shows that I love her. 

We got the Hollister gift cards for two of my sisters then went to another store for the twins and another one for my mum and Dan. I feel like they should be happy with these. I feel horrible for not being around them for a few years. I know this time is going to be different since the last time I saw them. The last time I was around them I was so different. I was still around Jace and Joey. Now I'm happy, away from them, and I have Allison. She makes me want to be a better person. I feel like if I went back to how I was she wouldn't be around me. I don't want to risk losing her. It was hell when I was around her for a few days when she was upset. I don't want to go through that again. As we were walking out of the mall I wrapped my arm around her waist. I pulled her closer to me, kissing her cheek. I noticed her smile. I love making her smile. I could do something so simple that makes her happy. I looked up and noticed a few people looking at us. I don't really care. I want people to know she's mine though. I know we still have to worry about getting caught but I feel like if we did I wouldn't care too much. I know she's not going anywhere. She's proves that she's not. We walked out to my car and I put our bags in the trunk. I opened the door for her as she kissed my cheek, "Thank you."

I smiled, "No problem, love."

I walked around, getting in. I intertwined out fingers as I pulled out of the parking lot, "Do you want to stop somewhere and eat, love?"

She nodded, "Yeah, I'm hungry since I haven't ate today."

"You know you could have said something sooner if you were hungry."

"I know. I wasn't really hungry till we were in the last store."

"Where do you want to eat, love?"

I noticed her smile, "I don't care as long as I'm with you."

I can't help but smile. I love hearing her say things like this. I know she's the only girl I've ever actually been in a relationship with but I don't want to be in a relationship with anyone else. I feel like she's the one. I know no one else would put up with my shit. I pulled into the parking lot of a small restaurant when I felt her squeeze my hand. I pulled her hand up, kissing the back of it before I let go. We got out of the car and I walked over to her. I wrapped my arm around her waist, kissing her cheek before walking in. We walked back to a booth towards the back and she sat down. I sat down next to her, wrapping my arm back around her. The waitress walked over, asking what we wanted to drink before walking away. We were looking at the menu when Allison kissed my cheek, whispering, "I love you."

I love hear her say that. I can never get enough of it. I guess it's because no one has really said it to me except for my mum when I was younger. I pecked her lips, "I love you."

She seems kind of curious about something. I kind of want to know what it is. Before I could ask the waitress came back with our drinks and took our order before she walked away again. Allison pecked my lips, "What's wrong, babe?"

I looked at her confused. I guess me being nervous is more obvious than I want it to be. "What do you mean?"

She looked up at me, "You seem nervous."