Secrets

Chapter 49

As soon as I sat down on the bed I heard Louis knock on the door. He mumbled, "Baby, please let me in. Just open the door."

I rolled my eyes even though he can't see me, "Why should I, Louis?"

''I just want to fix this."

"Not right now."

I heard him sigh outside the door, "Please come get out here when you're not upset. I just want to fix this."

I sighed, moving back on the bed so that I was laying back against the pillows. I grabbed the remote from the table, turning on the TV. I hope this can make me feel better. I know I need to make things right with him. I love him but I hate when he hides things from me. I don't want our relationship to be based on nothing but lies. Honestly I kind of have that as a fear. I mean he is older than me and he's hardly told me anything about his past other than some things about him and his sisters. I mean I've told him so much about my past. I don't really have much of one but he still knows about it. I need to get over this and let him explain. I mean him and I need to talk about some things. I mean I know that we've moved kind of fast in this relationship. Maybe we should slow things down and fix some things before going any further. We really need to talk. Just talk about everything. I sighed, taking off his jacket that I was wearing. I set it on the bed before getting up. I walked over to the door, unlocking. I opened the door and saw Louis sitting on the couch with his face in his hands. I really hope he's not crying. I'll feel horrible about myself. I wouldn't have been so upset though if he was just honest with me. I walked over to him, moving some of his hair. He looked up at me and he looked relieved. I noticed that his eyes look a little red. I feel horrible right now. This is one thing I didn't want to see. I hate knowing that I did this to him. I was upset with him. I didn't want to make him this upset about everything. I felt my eyes start to water, "I'm so sorry."

He shook my head, quickly getting up. He grabbed my hand, mumbling, "This is my fault. I should have just answered the question. I'll answer anything, baby. I just want to make things right between us."

I smiled a little, "Let's just agree that this is both of our faults and that we both need to talk."

He nodded, "You're right, baby. Do you want to talk now?"

I nodded before pulling him into the bedroom. I let go of his hand, sitting down on the center of the bed. He walked over, sitting on the edge. He looked like he wanted to say something but he seems like he's kind of scared to. I don't want him to scared to tell me anything. I'm not going to judge him about his past. I just care about him being the man he is now. I reached over, grabbing his hand again. I intertwined our fingers, gently squeezing his hand, "I'm so sorry that I over react about things. I hate that I do."

"It's fine, baby. I understand why you do."

"I haven't exactly told you why I do.''

I looked up at him and he looks kind of confused, "What's going on, baby?''

I sighed before looking down at our hands, "The reason that I tend to overreact about things is because I have a fear that this relationship is a lie. Actually it's one of my biggest fears."

I didn't hear him say anything. I felt him squeeze my hand as I looked back up at him. He looks concerned and kind of scared. He shook his head, "Why? Why do you have that fear?"

I shrugged, "I don't really know."

"Yes you do, baby. Please just tell me."

"I think it's because you're older than me and I'm you're student and you're my teacher. Sometimes it's just makes me feel like everything between us could be a lie and that honestly scares me because I really don't want it to be."