They Wouldn't Understand

The Explanation

*YOUR POV*

     Erza sat up and looked at me. "Yourself?" What do you mean? I sighed.
     "Erz, for a while, I had an abusive girlfriend. I was so happy before her. She took me, used me, and threw me away like I was garbage. She would hit me and insult me. She's the reason I was scared of being in love and still am. She hurt me so much that I doubt I'll ever be fixed again. But surprisingly, the worst times were when she'd ignore me. Well, mostly. She ignored me when I wanted affection and made me do humiliating and painful tasks if I even wanted a hug." Erza gently took my hand in both of hers, which made me feel loved and supported. So I continued. "She drove me into a bad state of mind. I hated myself and wanted to die. I pushed away my own wants and needs for the desires of others. I only wanted to give people the happiness I couldn't have. Sometimes that meant going days without eating just to stay and hang out with someone. I was destroying myself. Even after I left Phantom Lord and joined Fairy Tail, I was still doing that. It wasn't until I met you that I actually started to care about myself. I figured you wouldn't want someone who was actively breaking themself down. After all, you wouldve constantly been worrying about whether or not you would lose me. So I got better in order to have more of a chance at being with you. You seemed so strong and I wanted to be worthy of that strength, so I began taking care of myself and paying attention to my own needs. You saved me from myself, from my self-destructive state, and I am forever in your debt for that. Thank you. For everything." Erza just smiled softly, then kissed me.
     "I'm just glad that the girl I love is okay now, especially because of me." I couldn't stop the grin that spread across my face as I kissed the beautiful redhead again.